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Later. Probably one of the best moves you've made on RS so far. ;)

The pace these players keep is incredible.

Thanks Wongtong ;) I just suddenly realized that I can do much better. She's not very stable... for the last 6 months of our relationship she tried to be very controlling and cried day after day. She was going through some rough times and even became suicidal at one point. I helped her through a lot of stuff, went to the hospital with her a few times to see therapists, drove her to the clinic and waited there (5h wait here) with her quite a few times and did many other things. She ended up blaming her suicidal issues on me even though I never mistreated her or anything. When she told me it was "my fault" that she was having problems and all I was doing was making her life miserable I knew I couldn't stay with her. I knew my life was a lot [cabbage]tier than I wanted it to be so I left her and decided to change that.

Haha, nice! I remember staking you a couple times a few days ago and losing every time. :grin: I only boxed that one day I staked you, ended up making 45M which was fine with me.

I posted that in the confessions thread as it seems to belong there more than here. I don't regret my past, but I do regret how I treated myself. I wanted certain things but never cared enough to work for them. I understand what you mean though, if I wasn't so ashamed of myself I wouldn't have changed things.

[hide]When I dumped my girlfriend of 2 years 3 months ago I felt like I was wasting my potential. I've always been an underachiever and never really put effort into anything. I always thought of myself as intelligent and better than average (although I never acted like a pretentious douchebag to anyone.) Going through HS I realized that most people thought they were superior to everyone which is where the idea that I was nothing special began to sink in. I began to think about what I had in life: low self-esteem, not many friends (or so I thought), nothing planned for my future and no money saved. I had no real achievements; I had never worked to earn something I really wanted. I decided I was going to test myself. I wanted to know whether I was above average or not. I google'd everything about working out, gaining muscle mass, proper diet plans, proper workouts & routines, etc. The same day I bought a two month membership to my local gym and spoke to the trainers, showing them my plans and what I wanted to achieve. They helped work out some flaws in my diet or workouts and suggested some things. I began to learn about subjects which interested me beginning with journalism & writing, moving onto sociology/anthropology and finally, after weeks spent reading up on information, I decided that I was going to study psychology. I asked my managers at my lame fast-food job for more hours and began saving every dollar I made. After two months I had 3000$ saved, which was alright, but I realized that in the long run this wouldn't be enough. I began to study investing, learning the basics and eventually more. I wanted to know how to properly invest and make profit, so I read up on the subject and learned. I currently spend two hours a day studying, usually 90 minutes of psychology and 30 about investing, but if I'm interested I'll read more. Notes are also taken. I also cleaned up my act. Cut my long, sloppy hair, started regularly cleansing/exfoliating my face, got rid of my skater clothes and bought a few suits and better looking casual clothes, stay clean-shaved and hit the sauna every day at the gym to clear up the little acne I used to have. After about a month I decided to broaden my horizons. I've decided to learn a new language every year (currently speak English, French and Spanish. Taking a Finnish course which I signed up for.) I also signed up for yoga & guitar classes. I bought a new instrument every few weeks which I learned to play half-decently before buying a new one: a bass, a harmonica, a classical acoustic, a keyboard, a ukulele and I'm currently waiting for my next pay-check before I buy a set of electric drums (I live in an apartment so I can't own a real set.) I will play these until I'm satisfied with how good I am. I'm honestly proud of what I've done in the past few months. I feel as though my life just began and I'm a completely different person than I used to be. I look back and think of my past (or most of it) as wasted time. What keeps me motivated is the fact that I don't want to be 'normal', I don't want to stop learning and developing myself. This picture basically summarizes what motivates me: [/hide] I don't mean to brag or anything, nor do I think I'm better than anyone. I just felt like typing this up and letting someone know. I find it funny how someone like my ex provoked this. Life is great. Also, I'm on NZT..

Motivation anyone? [hide=(Language)] A few of those I got in /fit/ [/hide]

I was driving around earlier and The Chain by Fleetwood Mac came on. Soothing.

:razz:

You could probably make the cash in the time it would take you to do all those bbones... probably more even.

In the past two months I've went from 6', 130 lbs to 155 lbs and my body fat went down 1%. My goal is 170 atm. I was actually surprised when I started seeing results after going to the gym.

:lol: You crack me up. I'm sure Jesus helped her out personally... Or not. :twisted:

It's actually in northern Canada haha. He has a lot of exotic birds, turtles and a tortoise too.

Yes because rabbits haven't died crueler deaths before. Snares?

Wut. :-s What did the pet store workers say? They were cool with it. Apparently kids go there and do it quite a bit. I guess it would save the store some money on pet food. :rolleyes: The guy working said that most of their snakes are fed mice that kids go in and buy just to watch a snake eat it. I'm actually debating on buying a rabbit there and watching their big ass anaconda eat it.

This guy. I've known him throughout HS and he's always thought he was superior for no valid reason. Bah.

To summarize my day: -Woke up, showered, played guitar for an hour or two. -Went to hang out with two friends. Drove around. -Went back home for a bit. -Got picked up by three other friends. -Drove around & got high with them. -Went to the local pet store, bought a few mice and fed them to the alligator at the pet store. -Came home, dl'ed a "general psychology" torrent with a lot of interesting/useful books to read. -Read/took notes from 'Financial Risk Taking: An Introduction to the Psychology of Trading and Behavioral Finance' by Mike Elvin from 12:30am to 4:45am Off to bed soon.

Loving the irony of this post Irony? You are uninformed. You can eat healthily and do regular light exercise, which I'm sure is how you perceive "being healthy," but you can also eat healthy foods and lift weights, gaining muscle mass (weight.) It's quite simple. Adding or losing weight doesn't have to mean fat. I "care" about my weight because I'm trying to gain muscle mass at the moment. I maintain a healthy diet and try (usually successfully :lol: ) to avoid fast food and other crap.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVq2yMuAMVQ&feature=player_embedded#at=45 Holy [cabbage], this is awesome. Saw it on a friend's wall.

Today... woke up after 3h of sleep, can't fall back asleep so I'm just gonna stay up. Supposed to hit the gym and chill with an ex today... I'm gonna avoid her instead. Oh and... just got hacked on RS, lost a [cabbage] load of stuff and like two weeks worth of dung tokens. I quit. It doesn't really bother me because I stopped caring a long time ago anyway.

Same with me. I can't even be in the house with socks on. I take them off as soon as I get in. I also wear flip flops for most of the summer.

Keep us posted. I know we've probably never actually talked or anything but I've lurked a lot and you're a good guy. Life eh?

I love the album art almost as much as I love Exogenesis Symphony. Nice. Btw you lost 80 lbs? That's awesome.

Went to the movies with a girl I've known for 4 years. We've had plenty deep-ass conversations and we're actually really close. Although Cowboys & Aliens sucked hard, she was really cool to hang out with. I'm seeing her now. I love how deep of a connection we have... I've spent the past two years with two very stupid girls, one of them being a psychotic [bleep]. :thumbup:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOjYpcARRmc :thumbup: Pretty unknown Moroccan doom-metal band.