Veiva

nvm ... I'm sorry. I come from a life where I've had to struggle and fight and claw for every good thing in my life because of mental illness, poverty, and circumstance. So it's a bit (...very) grating to have someone from a much different upbringing ignore these things when giving advice. Like I said, I appreciate it. I hope you understand why it just comes across as condescending to me as a result.

What does that have to do with anything? I already apologized for my stupid rants. I hadn't taken my medication for a few days. I was emotionally unstable. re: traveling, I don't have the luxury of skipping out for of work for weeks because I have bills that are due every month regardless of if I'm home or not. And plane ticket to Europe is easily $500... So that exceeds your budget by $300 just to get there. I'm /responsible/ so I'm saving for an emergency fund to last 3 months (6 months is simply unreasonable at my income level), so the fantasy of traveling is simply reserved for when I graduate and get a good job ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

"always?" You're the only one I said is condescending or one-upping lol. And I said I appreciate your trying. That's not one-upping? You're literally bragging to someone who lived below the poverty line for two decades you've traveled more. You're completely oblivious to the fact 1) I'm going to school full time 2) I have two jobs. 3) I literally struggle to pick up a 10 ream case of paper. These are things I've mentioned in this thread, just on the last few pages! You grossly underestimate how much being 6' 8" helps you vs how much being 5' 8" hurts me. This is just your replies to me in the last couple pages.

idk it seems going to the gym is a magnitude of an order more sensible and efficient than getting a manual labor job I wouldn't qualify for in the first place also I already have two jobs so like lol I mean I appreciate you trying Saq but you come across as kind of condescending and you one-up peeps and it just annoys me, sorry. Also nationalism scares me.

It drops things... Where does it hold them?

I know it's not like my clothes won't fit after two weeks but it's just something I wanted to take into account. I've invested /a lot/ into my clothes over the last couple years (ie since I lost all my weight) and I don't want to have to do it again in a year or two. yeah let just quit my awesome programming job that'll let me advance directly into a mid-level job position right out of school

So 15-20 reps (instead of 5) / X sets (like Muggi suggests)? you guys are awesome btw. I'll either be starting this Monday or the next. I have to move some things around to make this week work, but I should be able to pull it off.

I think you underestimate how much being 6' 8" helps. :P Also I hate facial and body hair so I'm never growing a beard. Like I said, I'll start working out ASAP. I don't have a problem presenting as masculine (unless "acting masculine" means being in any way a jerk at which point yeah I guess I'll never be able to pull that off). ... this may be a dumb question but how will muscle building affect my clothes? I'm currently a small (shirt size) at 5' 8" / 155 lbs and I really don't want to go up to a medium.

Thank you so much! I never quit so that's not going to be a problem. :) I'm the .

Any advice? I know less than nothing about muscle building / lifting / etc. I'm not joking, I only recently found out the what a rep and a set are.

I can't do a single push-up. I can just barely lift 10-ream cases of paper at work. There's printers I have to get coworkers to lift. I bike (mostly), run (a little), and diet. So my legs are great, my arms and body... not at all.

It's self image issues. I still feel like I'm fat. (There's some unresolved issues there lol.) I'll talk to my therapist about it. You're right. Thank you. I'm never going to look good shirtless because I have a lot of loose skin. Which only exacerbates the self image issues.

5' 8". I'm currently 155-160 lbs (haven't weighed myself since I started losing weight middlish of August, want the loss to be a surprise, going to weigh myself @ the end of September). This means I have a smallish gut (noticable at certain poses or topless) and my thighs are a /little/ flabby (only noticable when sitting down without pants lol; I only wear pants so no one would notice). if you can check my edits. I know I'm bad about editing posts after I post them. Sorry. :P

I'm currently trying to lose someone more weight (~20-30 lbs left, wanna go down to 130-140) then bulk up, so I'm already working on that. It's weird how being nice is being associated with being submissive because I am not submissive. Toxic masculinity is a thing and this is why we need feminism. I'm both joking and being serious at the same time. :P re: pictures, any comments? Because I'm going to keep trying. I'm not waiting another 1.5 years (optimistically) to go dating, I've already waited 26 years. (Well, not quite--obviously--but whatever). I'm thinking 5A (smiling @ World of Beer), 8 (leaning against wall with blazer), 9 (smiling in red dress shirt), 2A (sitting in grey shirt), 7 (coffee place in gryff shirt)), 6 (Carowinds), 3? (bike), 10 (group photo). I've been floating around a few ideas for my bio too: "I'm like Batman, I don't have to worry about disappointing my parents." (funny but probably not good for bio) "I'm actually Aubrey Plaza and Chris Patt's long lost child." (b/c of dark/dirty jokes I make like above + my description of my attitude/personality further up). OR "I'm actually Andy and April's long lost child." (more specific, only appeals to those who've seen Parks & Rec). uh think that's it btw thanks muggi, rpggamer, and ring_world for putting up with me on my adventure lol

What do you think you're doing wrong? I'm trying to figure that out but I honestly don't know. One of my friends said I'm too positive and talkative in a way that's possibly off-putting but he was probably being an ass. It may not come across online but in person I'm genuinely nice and polite; I listen to people and can recall most things they've said later*; I'm a very positive person and am mindful; I can keep a conversation going and as it turns out often have to carry it (that may be a sign?). I think I'm reasonably funny and witty. I'm think I'm physically attractive (I'd bang myself [not literally] but I may be being narcissistic or egotistical lol), at least above average. I also respond reasonably promptly to texts/messages within a reasonable time frame... (That may be another problem?) But I do that with friends, work, school, or anything. (Because I'm literally carrying a magical device which lets me know when I get an email text or other message instantly and reminds me later if I don't read it right away :|). I try and replay dates I've been on and I don't see where I personally did anything off-putting, but things sizzled usually whenever I tried to set up a second or third date (usually they ghost me or go "you're an X guy but..."). Is it it a bit weird to have been on over a dozen dates with different peeps but no one finds me attractive? Then again on the dates I went on I only fell for one person... It should be obvious but I'm new to this and I genuinely don't know lol. There's exceptional cases to my general personality I described, such as when I'm having a break (re: mental illness), or I forget to take my medication (...like the last few days which is probably why I've been overly dramatic lol), But I've never gone on a date, or otherwise talked to people I was dating, when that happens. So I think that's irrelevant. *: Aside: I found out some (a lot of?) people tell white lies and/or exaggerate over time and it's slightly disappointing (not sure if that's the right word?). If anything sounds like an excuse, it's not supposed to be, it's just my thought process. Feel free to correct me or inform me. :P My sister, for example, always blames everyone else for her problems but as an outsider it's easy to see she's the cause of most of her troubles. So I'm trying to figure out where I'm making the mistakes, because I don't think it's likely to be everyone else. That's not likely at all. I know. Doesn't change the fact that it's still annoying. ... It may get drowned in in the above post but I apologize for being overly dramatic, I've forgotten to take my medication the last few days. RIP. ... Feedback on pictures? Some of these I've posted, some I haven't.

16 GB master race! But my GPU is 4 generations old and my GPU is an nVidia 1050 (not Ti). I so wanna upgrade to a Ryzen 8 or 16 core / nVidia 1080 / 32 or 64 GB RAM / 1 TB SSD x2 (for FreeBSD & Windows) / 144 hz 4k or dual monitor but I can't justify it at the moment. I want a 3 month emergency fund more than anything right now... (But I could compile Unreal Engine in 10 minutes on that thing...)

Do you already have a GPU? (I'm assuming so but just checking since Ryzen doesn't have an IGP). And I'd /try/ going for a 1 TB SSD unless you're going to use a spare HDD. Of course, if you're not doing any gaming then it's more than plenty. Personally I use 256 GB on my Windows 10 install which I don't game on and it's plenty for all my development tools [unreal, Unity, Visual Studio, etc] / software [Microsoft Office, Blender, etc] / programming libraries [20+ GB] / music [50+ CDs of FLAC-encoded music plus MP3 encoded copies lol] / other crap. But some of the games on Steam I've bought are over 50 GB which would... be taxing.

btw if I hear "you're [cute / funny / sweet / nice / good] but..." one more time apparently none of those attributes mean anything none of them Socialization and dating has made me cynical of people.

he said he was going to come when I messaged him earlier w/e people suck @obfuscator yeah I know. Working in retail and being more social just made me realize even your seemingly average nice person is in all likelihood an asshat though which is a bit ... depressing.

I hope hell exists and it's reserved for people who stand others up I'm more reliable than a [bleep]ing clock why can't others be. that's it for tonight ... I deleted the extra rude bits. I tend to get egotistical when I get mad. I apologize.

yeah but I don't come from a bougie family sry fam (I'm joking, I just don't know why you're trying to one up me lol). The cost between any other continent vs Antarctica is ... very high. Very, very high. Even if my game is not financially successful when it's done in 1.5-2 years, I'll still get a good job at something like SAS Institute or Epic or whatever. Considering how frugal I live, I'd be able to save to visit all these places (Antartica included) with the income these jobs provide within a couple years. Speaking of SAS, I'm pretty sure my advisor at FTCC knows people at SAS so he'd be able to help me out there which is... great. SAS is looks like a lovely company to work for if you like work-life balance.

I'll go with a comically oversized police badge neck slot item. You'll get mentioned as a comment on the item in the GameDB! Yay :P.

tbh I've become less worried about dating after browsing okcupid for a while this morning Most peeps I find I like (pictures, bio, etc) are in Raleigh or surrounding area. Not only is the Raleigh pool much larger, it's much more attractive (personality and looks lol). it's probably best I hold off until I move to the area until I graduate. I'll still lurk but I'll hold expending much effort until then. Anyway by then I should be rich from my game :shades:. (Lol seriously if my game is successful I'm so gonna go traveling. My dream is to travel to all continents, so beat having travel pictures of ANTARCTICA [bleep]es).

I added the first actual enemy... It is going to be aggressive unless you have a copper item (Anyone have any idea for a funny copper item? The tin item is going to be a tin can.). There's going to be a tin skelemental as well. Next to add the drop mechanism. They will drop copper & tin flakes commonly which are stackable, smeltable items. They also have a chance of dropping low-level bronze armor rarely, and slightly higher chance of dropping noted tin/copper ores or bars.

I understand, but in academia and medicine, the term gender has been divorced from sex since the early 1900s. Gender in language serves a social role and ergo it should be judged by the social idea of gender. For example, what about languages that refer to objects by genders instead of being gender neutral, like Spanish? Is anyone actually arguing about the gender of a table, or chair, or car? In my case, I'm physically a man, and I don't want to change that, but my role in society does not reflect any socially acceptable male role, thus it's not exactly accurate to refer to me by male pronouns or female pronouns since I don't consider myself either. However, even more specific to me, I really don't care if I'm referred to as he, she, or they so long as it's not done in a derogatory way. From experience, and I've met a lot of non-cis peeps going to Jacks Tap and so on, someone who identifies as male presents as male and vice versa; so it's not like it's not like you''re going to easily forget what their preferred pronouns are. There's always exceptions, and there are those who take it too far (wanting made-up words as pronouns, for example), but they aren't representative of non-cis as a whole.