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You're probably a familiar face and likes you (whether it be friend or more than a friend, I don't know). Why don't you get to know her more and decide then?

They put me straight on quetiapine, then introduced diazepam. I've been trying to damn well tell them they're doing me no good, but they won't ever listen to me... >_< I rapid cycle much worse due to them. They don't seem to get that it's not just a 'give me some sedation and an antidepressant' matter. It frustrates me. It's not my place to say but I'm going to say it anyway. I'd ditch the idiot who doesn't keep to DSM-IV guide lines like a bible and go see a mood disorder expert who actually knows what they're doing. I'm just failing to see how a qualified psychologist misses the fact that for Bipolar to be present, Schizophrenia needs to be ruled out :wall:

*takes no responsibility* :lol:

I want to slap your psychologist in the head (or doctor, which ever got to you first) :) You can't give someone who has Bipolar and rapid cycles anything with antidepressants in it. It makes them either frighteningly hullucinate (Zoloft is prone for this) or triggers severe hypomania (Effexor Xr), which can result in a psychotic outburst or hospitalisation. Eliminating antidepressants from the mix in Lithium would be my first guess for a rapid-cycler (Please don't run out and try it). Also Omega 3 fish oil has been found to minimise iritable moods and aggression, despite critics saying it lacks evidence (this, I do recommend). What were you taking previously, if you don't mind me asking?

Strip poker isn't a good game to suggest when you don't know how to play, wouldn't you agree Rick? :-k :lol:

Schizophrenia is ruled out with Bipolar disorder. The DSM-IV states that Bipolar and Schizophrenia have different diagnostic credentials and that Bipolar only gives off Schizophrenia like symptoms. Are you sure you didn't mean Schizo-affective disorder? That contains elements of both Schizophrenia and Bipolar. It is believed Schizophrenic symptoms occur when there is an overlap in chromosome 13 and 22, significantly increasing by almost 3-fold when a member of the family has experienced psychotic Bipolar symptoms. It wouldn't surprise me that they may find Paranoid Schizophrenia existing in extreme Bipolar hypomania, in the near future however.

Call me crazy but I sense tension from the Grooms side of the family? On a plus side though, your wedding clothes are amazing!

What kind of questions do you have? I can't say that I'll be able to fully understand where they're coming from either but I could try, as I'm usually only at rock bottom for a fraction of time, which I'm thankful for. Rapid cycling means I'll bounce right up like a ball, or hit the ground like a ton of cement. I don't really get to control what happens only how I deal with it. I've had to deal with a few people with depression and all I have to say is it's amazing what can occur when you have a bit of faith in someone.

I find this topic interesting, I'd like to keep it going... I'd like to ask people what they're afraid of showing people in real life that they are able to show online? How do you think you can over come it?

Good luck babe if you ever need any help, you got a whole tip it community of loving people to help support you. :

The last thing a truly depressed person needs is added stress. On your side though, if a person can't handle full time work, they should do something to help themselves and cut it back to part time. The only time I would agree with a depressed person working full time hours and getting 2 weeks paid off, is if they're trying their hardest to support a family and they're the main source of household income. It's a fulltime job in itself, keeping yourself together with depression and being the main source of income to support your family. It's not easy to chug along in life when your serotonin levels make your hormones light fireworks. Speaking from first and second hand experience, I've been there myself. With my bipolar, because I rapid cycle I can't prepare myself for super highs or super lows. When I was working full time, I'd all of a sudden feel it happening and would have to go home early or have the day off, two at the most. I knew people were getting annoyed at me, it wasn't easy. I never got paid for it either and there were some weeks I really needed the money to support myself but I couldn't be at work with my health. There were times I even had to borrow money to keep my head above water. Sometimes I just really wanted someone to understand for once or help me out with the work load so maybe I didn't have to go home. Maybe you could be that person, helping the other guys out at work. You just don't know how much it could make a difference :D

For the amount of time you keep coming back to check this, you could have written half your essay :lol: Personally, I like the reward system. I make a word target then treat myself with a 15 min rest. Then another word target before I'm allowed to watch a television program etc

Eat the right meals, go for a jog or a long walk, listen to up beat music, PM me if you still feel the same in a few weeks time. If not, brush it off and get over it, happens to nearly everyone in teenage years.

Hey my beautiful gal :) Can't type much coz everyone is in bed and I'm on the noisy keyboard. I'll add more tomorrow if need be. I think you and I both know you've made your mind up :wink: What I think you're seeking though is approval from someone you respect, as you unfortunately can't at home. First of all I'm angry at your mum not your dad. I'll tell you why I'm angry at your mum. What kind of a mother puts their daughter through 18 years of HELL and mental abuse? God people can be so selfish. Yes your dad has been abusive, however, your mother had the choice to make her kids grow up in that environment. Personally, after I made sure the [bleep]er could never have another child, I'd work 2 full time jobs and raise my kids myself before I exposed any of them to that kind of upbringing. Second of all if you don't go, I'm going to fly over there and help you pack. You are old enough to make your own decisions now and learn by your own mistakes. Personally, I think this could be the best thing that has ever happened to you. Even if things don't work out, you'll be free from the mental abuse and give your emotions time to heal. The ONLY thing that concerns me, is where your father is going to direct his anger once you leave. I hope your mother finally finds the strength to break free, just as you have. She has done her job, you're an adult and alive. Now it's time to leave the nest and heal those broken wings O:) Parents have a hard time letting go but threatening to kill people is crossing the line. This shouldn't be taken with a grain of salt. My only advice is to keep things under control (you know what I'm talking about), have a back up plan, have a back up plan after that and another back up plan just in case.

:lol: ... Here's me being a goofball right now before I go out to dinner. I need brighter lip gloss to match the eyes :cry: oh well.

Online I'm confident, extraverted, opinionative, argumentive and outspoken. At works Christmas party I won an award for quietest person :)

Well I have bipolar and rapid cycle so my personality is always going to be different on certain days, unintentionally. In real life I won't talk to you until I know you because I'm really shy. Then on another day I feel great pressure of speech and will be loud, confident and talk your ear off. Some days I like to be alone from everyone, other days I like to be the centre of attention, party animal. Some days I just like to sleep, eat and cuddle. Other days I like to listen to loud music, dance around the house like an idiot and make people laugh. Some days I'm unmotivated, agitated, down. Other days I don't need to sleep, I create music, create art work, do well in business etc Tomorrow is a new day with me. I'm not type I or type II so it's unpredictable and the people who get to know me will just have to accept that. I'm thankful that it makes me creative, determined, motivated and goal focussed more than it makes me down though. It's not a mask, it's who I am. My life is one giant roller coaster and I enjoy the ride while it lasts.

I'm guessing you're speaking metaphorically here and asking people if they proceed actions from their heart or their head, although not literally? If that is the case, heart most of the time with sensitive issues close to home. Even when I know the rational, cognitive decision would be better, I give in and try to always find the good in it. On the other hand, when issues are not so close to home and belong to other people, I can easily choose the cognitive road.

If I had a choice I would, obviously :P

I would die fighting for other things I believe in, other than religion.

Re-read what you wrote. If any guy spoke like that to me and expected me to get to know him, I'd run the opposite direction. Try actually speaking positively about yourself for a change.

My high school was a short 10 min walk to the beach :) So I thought it would be a good idea if I took 2 weeks off school, hung out with my 20 year old friends and relax with a cold one on the beach and go swimming. I forged a letter to my home room teacher saying I went on a holiday with the family to Adelaide, made it look exactly like my mums hand writing, we have the same signature only hers begins with a J while mine begins with an M. I would have totally gotten away with it only my friend who was ditching it with me decided she would go back to the school grounds and was busted. It didn't take rocket science that she and I were always absent in the same classes... She got busted and the principle rang my mum and asked about the note.......... Well that was 2 month grounding. However, I had a sliding door in my room so that didn't stop me going out at night time anyway but that's a different story in its self :lol:

Ok let's see back in the high school years (before grades in year 12 even mattered)... I had purple hair with bright pink streaks. I drew on desks in permanent marker. I had 2 punch ups with other girls in my time. I smoked on school grounds. I ditched school almost 50% of the time. I made my business teacher quit. Burnt a giant hole in the science table... God bless magnesium strips :twisted: Hid in the science cupboard for a whole lesson because it seemed like a good thing to do at the time. Got put on a week of detention. Got put on an attendance sheet that had to be signed by every teacher to make sure I was going to class. Then graduated year 12 in the top 15% of QLD :XD: I turned out alright in the end!! kind of :lol: :lol:

yeah back then you looked shy :P

beautiful hair sue, I gotta straighten mine to get it like that! Here are a couple of pics that really bring out my bizarre eye colours that forever keep changing. Don't worry about the hair colours, they're never really the same for any longer than a month lol Anyway you get the hint, MY EYES WON'T STOP CHANGING COLOURS!!