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The girl I was supposed to hang out with last night bailed on me for the second day in a row, so ended up just saying [bleep] it and ended up smoking and playing smash bros with some guys from work and some old friends from marching band. It ended up being a pretty fantastic time. Also, anyone who hasn't tried Chicken and Waffle potato chips blazed hasn't lived.

I disagree with this. I did not make enough effort to make friends my first semester and it was some of the most miserable four months of my life. Try your best to branch out to everyone you meet during welcome week and try to find some sort of solid group because those weekends where your one friend is at home visiting his long distance girlfriend and you have nothing to do but stare at your walls as you do homework are things that I'd never wish upon anybody.

They are, they're just called Polyenso now. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHNkS0QN8Kg They sound absolutely nothing like Oceana did though. Birth.Eater is still pretty fantastic when I feel 17 enough to listen to that kind of stuff lmao. Also, I've seen La Dispute live. FANTASTIC show. They will definitely meet your expectations should you ever end up seeing them :P. The Justin Timberlake/Jay-Z concert was just incredible though. Though driving through Detroit always sucks, the concert was spot-on, with Justin playing pretty much the best set he could have assembled and Jay-Z being surprisingly not suicide-inducing. It's also a nice change seeing a stadium show for once instead of the smaller venues I'm used to haha. Definitely a fantastic time.

Haha, my old band opened for Being as an Ocean last year. They're all awesome dudes, a lot closer sonically to mewithoutYou than La Dispute though (but you should definitely check out mewithoutYou as well if you like La Dispute haha) I never seem to be able to bring myself to post anything here anymore. It's been a pretty crazy last few weeks; I've had some of the best nights of the summer as well as one of the lowest points I've been in months. Everything's mostly starting to look up though; I've gotten over the bad shit and now I'm going to a Justin Timberlake concert with a girl I'm talking to tomorrow which should be pretty fantastic haha.

Where do you go? I go to Tech; unless I'm mistaken if it's public, probably UofM? There are like three TIFers there I think. Yeah, University of Michigan - Ann Arbor. Though I just realized that I had a brainfart and that figure i gave is the tuition for two semesters. My cost per semester when housing is factored in is actually closer to $16000 - which still blows. I haven't seen any other TIFers from there though lol.

Yeah... about $20000 a semester here, GOD BLESS AMERICA

Went and saw fun. last night. Easily one of the best concerts I've been to, their set was pretty much perfect and everyone left with a smile on their face. Made me appreciate their newer album too after hearing the songs live. One of the friends I went with ended up kissing Nate Reuss when he ran into the crowd and nearly fainted afterwards from excitement, lmao. Today I'm cleaning house all day to get ready for my exchange student from last year's return tonight. Beyond pumped for that haha. I also picked up a set of HiFiMan RE-400 In-ear monitors. They still need to burn in, but I'm already loving them. It's so nice finally having a pair of audiophile-level earbuds after being stuck with shitty $20 ones since christmas when my last good pair broke.

Oh hey. Guess I accidentally haven't posted here in a couple weeks, whoops. Crazy day at work last night. My manager was fuming the whole time because he had just put in his 2 weeks as he had gotten written up for hanging up on a customer that swore at him for over ten minutes on the phone because a delivery driver forgot to send a $1.25 bag of chips and refused to just take a store credit to make up for it. On top of that, an employee showed up completely shitfaced and ended up eventually spilling a drink all over the carpet. The manager ended up nearly walking out of the store after firing him on the spot and was running around the store swearing at everything. It was really....scary, lol. Never knew so much could happen in a 3 hour shift. After that I ended up going to IHOP with a friend for the first time in years. Cin-a-stax pancakes are just HEAVENLY. Afterwards we ended up watching Moonrise Kingdom at my house, which is a beautifully, artfully done movie that is probably one of the best date-movies I've seen haha. Highly recommended to anyone.

Parents left for Canada last night and won't be back til monday. I celebrated properly by having a small, but really fun party last night. No crazy stories, but it was just a pretty perfect time. Also it was my first time trying Ciroq and Captain Morgan instead of the shitty Smirnoff I'm used to getting, which was a very awesome (albeit expensive) change of pace.

Guess I was wrong about her losing interest. She ended up messaging me today and giving her number, so maybe there will still be more to this story. I still don't want to make anything serious out of this due to distance and age difference but it'd be cool to maybe hang with her a couple more times this summer. I'll just let it play out haha.

Finally had my first make-out sesh at a friend's birthday party yesterday. ...lol I was such a bad kisser that the chick lost interest in me afterwards when we had been cuddling for about 4 hours beforehand (we were both really high and there were too many people there to get time alone until after waiting that long). But I guess that's a given for your first time lmfao. At least it's out of the way I guess. I highly doubt I'll ever see that chick again.

I saw the Purge last night with a friend. Cool concept but it ended up turning into just another generic slasher film, which was disappointing. Still, it was entertaining at least. Today I went back to the gym for the first time since my hospitalization a couple weeks back. Everything went fine and I straightened out my breathing problems while lifting so hopefully I can stay out of there this time. I know it's been a while since I've posted here but these last few weeks have been even less storyworthy than this post haha.

I thought you said earlier that she had changed so much over the last few years that you no longer wanted that kind of relationship with her?

Today at work a group of white trash came in. After deciding on their order, three of them went back to their car while a fourth one placed the order. It was all going well at first, until the man asked for a side of banana peppers with his sandwich. I told him that our Jimmy Johns neither offers toppings on the side nor stocks banana peppers, which it does not. He then began freaking out, saying that he had been going to Jimmy John's for years and had never had a problem ordering that. I told him that I was sorry, but our franchise does not do that, if it ever even did. The man then began screaming at me and threatening me, saying I was calling him a liar and asking to talk to my manager. She basically said the same things I said, as our store had stopped doing both of those things several years ago. He finished his order and left without any major altercation or anything, but it was still kind of scary lol. It's ridiculous that people like that actually exist when you live in suburbia. Also I watched Seven Psychopaths tonight with some friends. FANTASTIC movie; I haven't seen anything else remotely like it. Highly recommended for fans of darker comedy.

Had my birthday party last night, and it was just fantastic. About 40 people showed up to chill, including friends from college who drove out here from across the state. No real stories though, just a great time.Afterwards I ended up smoking a couple bowls with my two best friends from college and two really close friends from back here, and it's just kinda surreal thinking about how much changed to make a night like that possible over the course of the last year. Also, Reese's Peanut Butter Cup Chips Ahoy are the SHIT.

That's awesome! Haha, reading all those posts about your band make me really miss mine from last summer. Mnleh.

thx bby <333

Finally succumbing to showing myself on here. Index it I guess.

Happy birthday to me~ Spent last night hanging out with a close friend for a while. On the way back I got pulled over at two in the morning for yielding at a blink red 3 way intersection that nobody else was at instead of coming to a complete stop. However, the cop let me off with just a warning. Now I'm about to work five hours, then get my house ready for the party I'm having tomorrow night before hanging out with a couple other friends. Should be a decent birthday, but tomorrow should be DRAMATICALLY better.

Really? You're probably the only other one I've seen here haha.

Yeah, he had just stressed that he didn't want any alcohol there so I didn't really know what to expect in regards to everything else. I knew there would be weed there because my friend was bringing it and I brought my piece but the acid kind of caught me by surprise. Looking back though, you're absolutely right lmao. And I forgot to mention, Paul (the host) is kicked out of his house now. His parents will still help him pay for college if he keeps his grades up but he's already moved to his college's town. Probably never going to see him again lol. (edited after langzor's post for clarity)

So Friday night, my friend Dave and I went out to my friend Paul's house. Paul lives about 45 minutes from me on a lake and was having a party out there, where Dave and I were going to spend the night before going to a concert in his area (Bled Fest) the next day. The party was labeled as a "Paint Party", in which we were going to take Paul's boat out to an island on his lake and paint on some canvas he bought and listened to music. It seemed a little strange, but I figured it'd be worth the experience and it would be cool to see Paul and his friends again. One of the first hints of the upcoming ridiculousness came when I picked up Dave, as he was tripping on Delsym (for those of you who don't know, Dextromethorphan, the active ingredient in cough syrups such as Robitussin and Delsym, is a powerful dissociative hallucinogenic drug when taken at higher doses). He claimed to have not taken a very large amount, but he was still definitely feeling the effects of it throughout the night. He also informed me that he was bring half an ounce of marijuana up with him. We ended up getting there at about 7:30. When we showed up, Paul was busy making strawberry banana smoothies, so Dave and I met the rest of the people that would be there: Whitney (who I had met several times previously), another girl, and two high school boys. After Paul made a sufficient amount of smoothie (probably about ten pounds of it, which was ridiculous for 7 people), he offered all of us what he claimed was LSD (I'm not sure if it actually was because that is incredibly hard to find, plus Dave had tried it a couple weeks prior and said it had a taste, meaning it was likely not actual LSD and was probably some sort of test chemical.). Regardless, we all turned down his offer, and Paul left to go take a tab. We then got our stuff together to prepare to embark on our voyage to the island. What Paul failed to mention to us was that he did not have access to his parent's boat, and instead all we had was a paddleboat and two one-person kayaks, which Paul wanted to leave there for latecomers. We decided to take two trips to get everyone there, so Dave and I had to wait in Paul's backyard while everyone else took the paddleboat to the island for the first trip, loaded with five people, ten pounds of smoothie, a canvas, and a bowl of chicken strips. However, we had all their weed, cigarettes, and the only piece, so they would have to come back and get us eventually. We ended up waiting for about an hour before the high school boys came back with the paddleboat and took the kayaks back to the island, telling us that we were going to be responsible for taking the paddleboat back. By this time one other friend (John) had showed up. However, as we could not fit all of us in the boat and still have room to take everyone back, John decided to hang out at Meijer instead. Now, Dave and I had never used a paddleboat before. In fact, neither of us can even swim, though we had life preservers. In addition, if something did happen, we couldn't really ask for help because of the ridiculous amount of weed that Dave was holding on to. Add in the fact that Dave was still tripping balls on cough syrup, and you have kind of a scary situation. However, after about half an hour of heart-wrenching struggle, we finally make it to the island (the high school boys left on their Kayaks as we were arriving). We had some difficulties docking at first because Paul was tripping so hard, but we eventually docked our paddleboat and made it ashore. When we got there, Paul, Whitney, and the other girl led us to where they had been hanging out and painting. I was incredibly stressed at this point while Dave had no clue what was going on, so we all smoked 2 bowls and chilled for a while. We learned that on their way there, Paul had fallen off of his boat and broken his phone in the process. Once we were all drugged up, we began making the voyage back to his house as Paul and the other girl (who was the only sober one at this point) steered us to Paul's house. After we were there, it was a fantastic social time for about an hour. We all listened to music and I had some pretty great chats with Whitney. However, eventually Paul's parents had Paul come upstairs to talk to him about something... which he went to answer with his bowl in his hand in his pocket. Once his parents figured out what was going on, we heard his dad scream: "PAUL, IF YOU DON'T GET ALL THESE DRUGS AND ALCOHOL OUT OF MY HOUSE IN THREE MINUTES I'M CALLING THE POLICE ON ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS." Needless to say, we paniced. Dave and I hurried up and threw all of our stuff in my car as fast as we could and drove to Meijer, where we parked for an hour and a half to sober up and talk to people. While talking to Whitney on facebook in my car, I came up with some brilliant conversation in all my blazed glory: Whitney: Haha. What am I doing? Me: Bein an ice cube Whitney: ice cube ???? Me: Cuz u ~cool~ As you can see, I am quite the ladykiller. Anyways, once we sobered up we headed back to Dave's house to crash. Apparently Dave went to another party after we got back to his place for a while, but I was too tired and just passed out so I could be awake for the concert the next day. At least I got a good story out of the craziness.

Okay so after this weekend I figured I'd give a follow-up on this. Basically after this post I was doing a pretty good job of trying to distance myself more from her (Kelsi), which kind of worked for a while...til I relapsed when circumstances led to me hanging out with her about four times in one week in group settings and missing the attention she'd used to give me in these scenarios (she's recently began a thing with a close friend of mine that is basically always around whenever our group gets together (Alec)). For a while I was becoming kind of frustrated by how she seemed to be distancing herself from me, which every time turned into frustration at myself for feeling that for something that shouldn't even be affecting me. After talking to a couple friends about it I realized that my friendship with this girl was probably doing me more harm than good at this point, and despite how much she had helped me and how close we were in the past and how ingrained she has become in my social group, I should probably stop talking to her until I'm actually over her. I wanted to wait until after my birthday party (this upcoming Saturday) to do that though because I just didn't want to deal with any drama or having to revoke her invitation lol. However, a couple more developments may have gotten rid of the need to even do that. When I was in the hospital this past week, I spent most of my time drugged up on Dilauded (stronger than morphine), which I've now learned makes me extremely overdramatic. She was planning on visiting me one of the days, but after a rather long shift on rather little sleep she ended up sleeping through he potential ride, and was supposedly too ashamed at that to even text me back that day. she explained this the following morning, and told me that she did end up hanging out with Alec, but it was much later in the night so she wasn't blowing off visiting me for him. Through my Dilauded-tinted glasses, however, I interpreted that as her not giving enough of a shit to even text me to apologize but could go hang with him no problem. I talked to one of my friends about the scenario, who pointed out a lot of her flaws to me that I had been overlooking and really stressed me moving on. That combined with the ridiculous amount of anger I felt over this minor scenario (looking back I honestly don't know what was upsetting about it so I'm blaming this on the narcotics) led me to kind of blow up at her in one of my least proud moments. Thankfully I was able to fix that mess over the phone that night. I ended up throwing a party the day after I was released (Thursday) which she came to (along with many many others, 36 other people ended up coming), but that's when I noticed things changing. Like how I didn't actually have all that much to talk to her about in that kind of setting, and how she seemed a lot less attractive and much more covered in makeup than she normally was (even though she didn't actually look any different or do her makeup any differently), and how I didn't actually care when she spent most of her time there talking to him instead. After this, I ended up having a pretty insane weekend. I'll leave most of the details for an upcoming post in the Today thread, but two relevant things happened. First, while high I ended up flirting a lot with some random girl there that I probably won't see again (Whitney). Nothing happened as she had a boyfriend that wasn't there, but it was a wakeup call that other girls exist and that I still am perfectly capable of flirting even though I haven't really met anyone in a long time. The next day, my friend Kyle messaged me on facebook. He said that his friend Caitlin thought I was cute on facebook and had a lot of similar interests. He then sent me her profile, and she was really attractive. Like, probably just as attractive as I thought Kelsi was before I started making any actual progress. And she has already expressed interest. It was just boggling to me, as I have never really had much success and I didn't think I was honestly attractive enough for people to think that from just a profile picture. But it happened. I unfortunately will not get to meet Caitlin until August because she lives 3 hours away from me and we haven't met yet, but my friend will try to introduce us at his birthday party in August and we go to the same college. With all of this on my mind, I ended up picking Kelsi up tonight to go to a friend's bonfire. After filling her in on my stories from the weekend and her telling me about some other shit that had happened, we went to the bonfire. The whole night she seemed even less attractive to me than she was on Thursday, which I am thankful for. She then decided to have Alec take her home instead of hanging out with me more after, which by this point did not even phase me. So now, here I am at home. I know that this was way longer than I originally wanted it to be, but I think I've made some real progress. I got way too needy with her. She rejected me over last summer, but I kept hanging out with her anyways because our personalities clicked so well, and she grew to be the closest friend I've ever had and really helped me with a lot of personal problems I had throughout that semester. All of that led to me getting some pretty nasty oneitis for her, even though I knew that she told me she would never be interested in more than a close friendship ("I think you're attractive, but I'm not attracted to you"). Her being my closest friend didn't really help that from coming on either. However, this made me get way too needy, as a lot of these stories probably showed (I honestly was embarrassed to type out the parts about getting angry at the situation because I know how pathetic it is, but I know that anything that isn't 100% honest on here is pretty useless). It made me just crave the attention she used to give me before she started talking to Alec, which led to me being petty. However, I think the events of this past weekend really did help with my self-confidence and with realizing that there are other girls that I can find to be as physically attractive as her. I think I am legitimately over her, or if not at the very least I'm incredibly close. Now I guess, if anyone is still reading at this point, what I want to know is: Should I still break off talking to her for a while to make sure I'm completely over everything, or does that seem unnecessary now? I honestly feel like I've gotten her off that pedestal a lot and am on the right track, but maybe I'm blinding myself again. Also, any other opinions on how to handle this situation are welcome. As overly long as this post was, I did still leave out an immense amount of detail for brevity's sake, so I can elaborate on anything necessary.

Just came back from the craziest weekend of my life. Stories forthcoming.

Got discharged from the hospital yesterday. Nothing major was wrong with me, I just have to take a couple weeks off lifting and I have prescriptions of vicodin, steroids, and muscle relaxers to take for a while. It's so nice being back home and being able to relax again. Still deciding on whether or not I want to go to Bled Fest on Saturday. I have a lot of friends that are going and I like a good deal of the bands on the lineup, but I just don't know if I really feel like going to a show this soon after getting out of the hospital. Bleh. No clue what else I'd do this whole weekend though...