I wouldn't want her being anyone else.

 

And the thing you didn't understand, Cyndi won't be home tomorrow when I get to town. I thought she would, and that we were going to lunch, but when I was asking her random questions she told me that she'll be working. She wouldn't have told me if I wouldn't have asked.

 

:mellow:

 

 

you are now my bff

Just disappointing, again. Oh well, I'll just go home and take a bath while the house is empty until my mom gets home.

 

Really, most disappointing is that I thought I changed her for the better. This girl isn't good with friends. She's sort of emotionally retarded regarding other people and doesn't know how to express that she cares. She doesn't know how to react when someone says they worry about her. She's too defensive and doesn't want to let people in. I've seen her at her most vulnerable, and she doesn't care that I probably understand her well enough to have good reason to be worried about her. She gets mad that I get upset when something disappoints me, but she's the same way; I recall hearing about how she cried like a little kid when her parents wouldn't let her boyfriend spend the night months ago. At least lately I've only gotten upset because things have kept disappointing me over and over. I'm worried because she's not emotionally "grown up" enough to be making life-changing decisions, and she definitely shouldn't be cutting herself off from the few people she has left.

 

I shouldn't even be worrying about her when I should be worrying about myself, but I'm worried about my mom too, and my brother, and my dad, and my sister. I can't help it. My mom has to deal with my siblings and her job isn't ideal, my brother is depressed and was going to commit suicide this summer, my sister is lying and isolating herself from her family, and I have trouble contacting my dad at all. It's all stupid. My mom is in "survival mode" because she can't show weakness to any of us, but she has trouble with one of her superiors at work, has to think about Christmas coming up and where the money for that is coming from, has to control her two kids at home, and is worried about me now too after I broke down to her Sunday. Life just isn't fair; it's a cliche, but it's true. And I don't like it.

I should probably pack, let my brain calm down from the bright computer screen, and go to bed. Night.

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I gueeeeeeesssssss I should go to sleep.

Just finished watching Paranormal Activity 1/2. A lot of laughable moments in it.

:eek:

*pokes head into unknown territory* Oh, hi. :P

Why hello there.

Hellooo nex.

How do I start doing homework again? Lately I've stopped doing homework (since like Monday) for no apparent reason and decided to procrastinate.

*pokes head into unknown territory* Oh, hi. :P

GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAAAAAAAAAN FURAAAAAAAAAA!

 

Naw FG is pretty cool.

Salve, Napalm!

Ave Abc.

How do I start doing homework again? Lately I've stopped doing homework (since like Monday) for no apparent reason and decided to procrastinate.

How did work go?

The actual job was pretty shitty, but it's my first one, so I kind of expected that. There's a girl who works there who's "new to the internet". She just kept saying memes. It was annoying. Other than that, it wasn't too bad.

You're all losers. I know it hurts but it's the truth.

 

Because this thread keeps getting replies. Insult me if you want, but no one is winning any time soon. Those that did were just lucky. That's the reason why I hate this thread, because there is no point.

It's just like every other thread in forum games. The point is that it's fun. Even if you're just going to complain about how much this thread sucks, you should post here more.

What the shit? I missed p7k