Estonian dude

On a party, bartender and a security guard. And things are going quite badly for me personally. So [bleep] it, I am gonna drink my ass off and I am not too sober atm. But, as a bartender, I can [bleep] everyone else including that one dude, who took the girl. Feels GOOOOD.

About to go trigger drinking again, I am afraid. Reason? The girl I like is beimg taken by a guy a million times better than I am. Where the [bleep] was he before? I have nothing against him. And so, I am gonna drink. My ass off.

Today, at 2.20 AM arrived at my grandparents' house, back from the trip. Last year, at same time I got tanned during that trip. This year, we got caught in a blizzard.

Shouldn't. In other words, in a McD's in Warsaw. Eugh, terrible congestion and traffic and no way to get around it... Also, why can't I get a big mac at the 'Donalds at 9AM? Only some [bleep]ing mcmuffin, which tastes like shit and is almost as expensive. Slovakia was awesome. Skiing can't be compared to Southern Poland. 2 km's just down the hill. And damn, it goes sharply. But now I know for sure that I can handle practically any mountain on a snowboard. I am not talking about speed, just that I can get down without falling. And that hill was so steep that when I got up the first time I wanted to call mum that where the hell had she taken me, there is no way I am going down THAT hill :) luckily there was no coverage so I just had to get started. Oh, was my 4th time on snowboard ever as well, but I managed.

Yeah, last night when crossing the border to Slovakia in High Tatras we got into a snowstorm. Well, nit even a snowstrom, it was more like what Siberians like to call a "burgaa". One moment wind brought up so much snow that absolutely everything was white. Our car had summer tires, which we just put on, since studded tires are prohibited in Lithuania and Slovakia and so we just entered slide with locked brakes on a mountain road where one side was a 150m fall. Luckily we hit slightly the other side where it was just 1,5m of snow. And we didn't get stuck in it... Right now in Tatralandia water park, it would be fun in summer but it is kinda boring right now with most of the stuff closed, since it is outside... But what is open is quite hot thanks to thermal waters ;) Also spent quite a lot of money on hard liquor... Bought a bottle of Tatra Tea. Just so you know, it is 72% alcohol. And also bought some other vodka and liquor stuff. Can't wait to get home to a party and start tasting that stuff :D

Wtf is trigger drinking? This whole party was a bit weird... Someone cut his hand and bled onto my shirt, some dudes were dancing naked, I was supposedly dancing on the stage, which is something I NEVER do, and I ended up at my friend's house 2 km's from the party.

I don't get so hammered usually. Only gotten so hammered twice in 2 years. And I remember something that happened, mainly the parts that I don't want to remember. And I saw something there, which made me drink so much. I don't get so hammered without a reason. I didn't want to remember that night for some reason, and apparently I succeeded. But I don't know, what that reason was...

What is this port thingy? Needs moar drunk Draz.

I may or may not have totally, completely [bleep]ed up with that girl who I mentioned was unseduceable. Friday, there was this one small party. Where I got so wasted that I can't remember a thing. Like, almost completely blank other than one moment when I apparently jumped off the stage and slipped and landed on my back with my head taking a proper hit. One small tip: NEVER drink shots of Jäger, rum and vodka straight without anything to drink between or after. Only beer afterwards. I must have tried like 15 different sorts of alcohol that night and absolutely none of anything without alcohol. I drank vodka with cider, 50% Minty with beer and Jäger straight from the bottle without anything... NEVER again. But, as I was trying to find out what I did, have asked about it from 20 people already, and some of them I can't remember seeing at the party. Whereas I had apparently spoken over an hour with one such person... I have gotten 20 different replies, with some saying I was the soul of the party, dancing, flying around, joking, talking with everyone. And others have said that I was really out of myself, really feeling down about something. Well, as I asked that one girl aswell, she first said she wanted to apologize for something. But then she heard that I can't remember a thing she was all like never mind. Have tried to ask, what have I or her done that night and she has ALL the times lead the subject away on a different topic. She was one of the people who said I was really out of myself, seemingly really sad and morbid.

I am in Poland, and I haven't seen a single Irish pub in this country... So dead, it is 8 PM and I'm falling asleep. Slovakia tomorrow.

You lucky bastard. I will be off the grid for a week. Going to Slovakia tomorrow.

Today, I had the chance to meet the composer who has written 2 songs that we are currently practicing and will perform on competitions. This guy is a [bleep]ing genius. He is just 26 and one of those 2 songs is going to be performed on song festival next year. So that it will be heard and seen by half the country at least. He also played one of his earliest works on a piano live. He was 18 when he wrote it and good god, he is good. <- that is in fact that same song performed by our choir last May. A bit rubbish quality recording, but you get the hint. I am the tallest guy on stage, with that red bowtie btw.

Vegas ain't that good for regular clipping and simply putting a vid together. I've heard it is a lot more complicated than Premiere. And Premiere really is simple, I got started on it with no previous experience other than 2 movies on WMM and I didn't need to see any videos. And I'd say it is easier to use than WMM.

I don't really think practiciing with Windows Movie Maker is a good idea. Some simple things get really [bleep]ed up when editing with Windows Movie Maker. You should learn Premiere right from the start, with a few YT videos it isn't that hard. It is even quite easy, this basic editing, it just takes a lot of time.

Snap, ouch.

Let's just agree that I am an extreme nationalist and I shouldn't be involved in that topic. On other news, my room is so cold that I can breathe out steam. Me likey! And also, that one girl I've talked about last two days? She is frighteningly weird sometimes. And even her best friend can't say how she could react if I were to invite her to prom. He told me noone knows how she might act when being a bit more private. And that she might not even want to go to prom.

I was unsure whether he was Langzor or dzi. And I knew it was a troll, which is why I haven't brought that up earlier. And don't for one second think that I am naive on outside world. There are bad apples among every nation in every country in the world. But it is just that our cultural sphere is somewhat overflooding with Angloamerican influences that your particular examples get so much wider coverage. And having visited your glorious country of U, S and A myself personally, and with having everyone that I know IRL who has been to America thinking the same way, then there must be some truth to it. Then again, I might be a bit naive on thinking that my own people know outside world as good as I am making it seem. After all, I go to a top 5 school in Estonia, have been Estonian champion in quizzing and have been on countrywide olympiade finale in geography and biology, so I really don't know about the average people in my land. But I choose to believe and I have to believe.

There is the case that I personally don't know such Estonians. Yet, probably, but still. Really bad word to use in this situation is comrade. Someone more nationalistic than me would set you on fire if you mentioned that word after our current moods in the topic. See, comrade is the word that everyone of us had to use in Soviet times instead of mister or citizen or something like that. It was oppressed on, by the regime, we were told anything else would remind us of those pesky capitalists. And I am not making this up, that is written in an old childrens' magazine from Soviet times. I really love these magazines, they are hilarious with their propaganda :) And I don't think all the Americans are same, since there are plenty of you with Estonian origins aswell. But on average, your naiveity to outside world is simply staggering. For example, when misandrist libertarian wrote that you saved us from Nazis, that couldn't be much further from truth... In fact, Estonians had a LOT better life under German occupation than we ever had during Soviet times. Estonian legal government openly supported joining German army, for the point of keeping out the Soviets. There was a special Estonian SS legion. Now I am not justifying anything the Nazi German regime did, with Holocaust and stuff. But Soviets sent one ninth of our whole nation to death in Siberia during 1940-1949. How the [bleep] is that supposed have saved us?

Giordano, no can do if there are only less than a million of us. I am a patriot and every one of us has to be if we want our nation and our people to survive. With our own culture and language. I wouldn't change it for anything. Singing along with 100,000 like-minded people = priceless. An experience that cannot be replicated. Nothing in my whole life has ever been anything like that. This feeling is stronger and better than being in love. I burnt through 2 layers of skin last summer on the song festival, ruined 2 shirts and spent a grand on getting to and from that event. And it was worth it. Part of me is even against the European Union. And I know that my parents definitely are against it. We are a proud nation, even though we are small. And that's why I always speak up on topics like this. And there isn't a single Estonian that I can't get along with.

EstoniaN boy. Just that I am super [bleep]ing annoyed when people make any connections between us and any Slavic people. We are generally intolerant against anybody foreign actually, even our closest relatives Finns. And you might say I myself am somewhat of a xenophobe, even though I have lived abroad for 8 summers. So calming my potatoes (which are actually the main food for most of Estonians) is not quite of an option. In other news, tomorrow is our mock exam in Estonian. 6 [bleep]ing hours of an exam... So tiresome.

Premiere is easy to torrent and it is, hands down, the best one I have used. And it is easy to use aswell. Numerous friends of mine who are actively in movie-making(semi-pro, making commercials and stuff), use Premiere.

You did not just say that. (At misandrist) Giordano, are you saying Finns are also Slavic people? We are a lot closer to Finns than to Magyars. We have always been part of the German culture, hell most of our traditions and national foods and everything have their origins. Only one single period in time when we were under Slavic influences AT ALL during all of our history has been 1940-1991.

And that's why I think most of you Americans are irresponsibly naive and idiotic. Well, if you say Eastern Europe, than geographically it is mostly Western Russia, Ukraine and Belarus, so it is not that wrong. But where would you rank Estonia? If you say Western Russia I will hunt you down, for we are not even Slavic people. And tonight I had a next dream, my first dream in years while sleeping during the night. But this one was definitely not that realm just a regular one, not a lucid dream. And Czezh beer is cheapest in Europe and some say it is also the best. And everything in Slovakia would be relatively cheap for you Belgians, tbh...

Fair enough. Btw, everything isn't that cheap there, beer for example is a lot cheaper in Czech Republic and most of the other stuff should be cheaper in Poland. I was there for a few days last March aswell, this year going for a bit longer time though. One cool thing about Slovakia is that it is full of medieval castles and caves and I am really interested in those. And also thermal pools. God, those thermal pools.

The geographical centre of Europe is in Poland or Lithuania, depending on what is the Eastern edge of Europe. So in no way are you even making a trip to the Eastern part of Europe when most of your trip takes place westwards from the geographical centre of Europe. I am from North-Eastern Europe and I am proud of it.