lizzywizzy

Today is my day off, so I Took the kiddo to the park, got sunburnt (me not her, she was wearing sun cream), came home, had a nap, now waiting on dinner. So not a bad day really.

My photo is from when I was pregnant, so its 5 years old now, can i use one of these as my picture please? or This is the most recent pic i have of me, I am on the right/top right celebrating my 30th. I dont remember having this photo taken though.

It's been snowing here, went for a 2 mile walk through the woods with the dogs today which was fun, until topaz ran into my leg and knocked me on my bum lol. Just spent the last 2 hours shovelling snow and ice so that we can get out....... And maybe I will have some luck getting home tomorrow. Being snowed in 150 miles away from home is not good!!!

I have just finished reading revenge of the homecoming queen by stephanie hale. I currently have two books on the go - "And that's when it fell off in my hand" by Louise Rennison Jenny Pox by JL Bryan. I have about 30 books on my kindle that I havn't started reading yet, but I have quite a bit of traveling coming up so I'll use that time to get more reading in.

duck face.... orrrrrrr offering a kiss? There is a difference between a innocect two year old and a douchy teen thank you very much :-)

I am looking into adding something to my tattoo on my wrist, but I dont know what to add to it, its somewhat bothering me. I am in no way being all like, omg tell me what to get!?!?!?!? by this lol. at the moment it is just a plain black script of "Freya". I was thinking a flower, but im not too sure. My brother wais to get the patchy bits filled in, but I dont want that. i got it done when She was a couple of months old and carrying her and her playing with it, knocked scabs off and its patchy, but its like she made her mark lol. I am sure I will figure it out at some point. I need to find a decent tattoo artist in the area first though.

Can you add that to my pictures please? Thanks :smile: And just because I can!!! [hide] She will be 2 in a few months, where has the time gone :sad: [/hide]

0.66 download 0.67 upload. internet has been shockingly rubbish since we moved into this house 4 months ago! Also we have a really angry Sky man up the telephone pole opposite my house almost every day trying to fix something, i hope its my internet he is trying to fix :-(

I have been feeling super blah today, I just realised I have not been taking my medication, I should probably start taking them again :-/ I am getting fed up with going to hospital now, I have been every week for the last 9 weeks, blood tests, more blood tests, ultra sounds, gastroscopy, some more blood tests, im getting bored of it now. We have established I have gall stones, I have a gaping Pylorus (sounds funny but painful, stupid stomach is letting acids into my intestines and is painful) and I am prone to pancreatitus at the moment,ive had it twice since beginning of december. BUT! today I am having a baby free day, going to have lunch, have a bath.... a BATH! not a quick 5 minute one but a full on proper bath!!! and off out on a date type thing tonight, so should help keep my mind of me being slightly broken lol. Hiiii!

Me last saturday night, with my friend in the club, Im the huuuuuuuuuge on the right :-) starting the gym next week to sort that out (well induction monday woop woop) My first sober night out in that club, it wasnt so bad until my babies father turned up with his girlfriend - bleh!

we are all sick in my house at the moment, so I have not done a whole lot. I had a visit from my health visitor, and I have spent all day cleaning up baby sick from myself, other than that, it was just watching telly and playing on laptop..... was watching jeremy kyle, someone from my town was on it hahaha!

today I confronted the father of my baby as to why he is such an ass and has been worse than useless since finding out I was pregnant. I cried.... im stupid! found out the reason he thought that he wasnt the dad WAS BECAUSE A WOMAN WHO IS RENOUND FOR LYING told him I was sleeping with one of my friends. Errrrrrm so instead of asking me what was going on, he just goes around calling me a [bleep]? Stupid douchebag!!!!! I felt pretty pooty before that convo tbh, now I feel worse.

today I got woken up by a phonecall saying that my gran passed away at 6:40am this morning....... so far for today.... that is all!

she looks cute, but sometimes I think she was swapped with the spawn of the devil lol. going through teething at the moment and she is constantly trying to eat me, which isnt toooo bad, but she likes to bite my nose if she is near my face and that shizzle hurts :-/

everything i had planned for today has been thrown in the bin. I didn't wake up until 11am, we had a phonecall saying that they have stopped all medication on my gran and have started administering morphine to keep her comfortable, so it looks like in a day or two I will no longer have any grandparents. Waiting on the care home to give us a ring with an update and we will more than likely be making the 13+ hour trip tomorrow. it is pretty hot again today so I have a grumpy baby woop woop!!!

me as I was yesterday with the little lady, shortly before getting ready to go out for a meal with friends.

I recently brought the Percy Jackson series of books. I am currently reading the sea of monsters - the second book - Its good, but I have lost track of it, it looks like we have a trip to Scotland coming up pretty soon, either tonight or tomorrow morning depends on how bad my grams is, so with that being a 13+ hour trip I will take it and read some in the car.

I am neither for nor against abortion. It is not something I would really ever consider, unless the baby had a serious health issue that meant it would either be guaranteed to be still born or have absolutely no quality of life once it was born. continuing with the pregnancy would be more cruel to the baby than terminating it. However, if anyone I know was to have an abortion, I would support them the whole way, even go with them if they wanted to. I am not going to think bad of someone if they decide to do that, its their decision. I do know though, whether it was for a good reason or not, I would find it hard to forgive myself for terminating a baby. Sometimes when I am feeling really bad (depression mixed with post natal depression is not always fun) I do think that Freya is only here because I would not really be able to terminate a baby.... however when I look at her and see her gummy smile and her playing with her toes or trying to roll over, it reminds me that she is worth it.... tablets help a lot too lol.

today, or well yesterday as its now 2am was spent looking after the little one, being eaten by the little one (well my nose anyway, sheesh that hurt) and sorting out my rubbish in the house. I seem to cause more destruction and chaos than any hurricane can cause these days, BUT we took three car loads of rubbish to the tip and I am pretty sure there is more to take. Went out to dinner with my friends, had an okay meal, service was shocking, but we had a good time and a good laugh, was nice to get out of the house. tomorrow or well today now lol looks to be mostly more cleaning and tidying until the little lady gets back from her fathers and then getting her bathed fed and bed, then chilling - fun times :D

I actually sleep more now than I did when I was pregnant or before I was pregnant. I usually try to go to sleep around midnight (tonight its almost 2am but I dont have the baby tonight) and Freya will usually wake up at 7am for a bottle, usually I give her the bottle and she goes back to sleep. usually I either go back to sleep with her and wake up at 9:30am with her, or I stay up and have some breakfast and catch up on the telly I have on series record. It is very rare that I remember a dream, but when I do, it is usually a stupidly random dream, like last night I dreamt I went out on a date with my best friend - who is actually gay - in the dream he was only 15 (Im 26) but we went out on the date anyway. We went to my place and he was going to cook me dinner, it was my old flat we went to though, and for some reason I had bunk beds in my room. I had to get changed for some reason but I couldnt find anything to wear, when I eventually found something to wear, I left the room to go into the kitchen only Seb looked grown up and he told me off saying he had waited years for me to find something to wear. I woke up feeling bad, and slightly creeped out that my dream self would consider going out on a date with a 15 year old lol. Also the other night I dreamt that my brother and his fiance had split up because she cheated on him and he was moving home, my only thought in the dream was poop I still have boxes of stuff in that room, where am I going to put that now????? no feeling sorry for his relationship breaking up lol I am currently on anti-depressants which were making me sleepy as hell, so I started taking them before bed and I always had weird dreams, I would wake up from them knowing they were weird, but never really remembering them. the sleepyness is slowly waring off though thankfully.

its almost 1pm and so far today all I have done is paint a wall :-P Oh and get dressed and feed baby.... I have two more walls to do but I need some big burley guys to come and move a wardrobe for me so I can paint behind it.

They still do the silver fillings, or they still use them in the U.K anyway, I have two of them. I am waiting on a tooth extraction :unsure: my old dentist put a temporary root filling in one of my molars, not only have I lost the top of the tooth and part of the side of it, but the filling he put in is sat right on top of the nerve of the tooth so if I chew on that side, it makes the tooth become inflamed and I end up with a swollen face - fun times. Was given the choice of extraction of root canal surgery... errr take out the tooth please!!!

I have never been allowed to paint before, but I think dad has given up and left me to it... I am 25 after all, I can handle a paintbrush :P OK it may not turn out fantastic but at least i'm trying?

currently taking a break from painting the nursery... and evidently myself... I've done one wall but Freya is due a feed and its gone 2pm and i am yet to have breakfast so soup time!!! plus i am no longer a person... I am a pretty pink spottier person! :shades: Should get the second coat of that wall and first coat of second wall done tonight, and then hopefully second second coat and first coat of small wall done tomorrow and hopefully move some furniture in tonight. My parents are coming home tomorrow and at the moment their bedroom is filled with a spare bedroom full of cr*p (I was told to put it in there to sort out) \:D/

Went shopping for a some new outfits for tomorrow. Have to be up and ready to leave at 7am (wont be a problem Freya will be awake at 6 for a bottle) to go to London to watch the recording of Ant and Dec's new show - black and red - should be good fun, then am off out tomorrow night only not so many cocktails this weekend!!!!!! my parents are off to Scotland on Sunday so ill have Freya on my own this coming week so a hangover is deff not an option! I think Ross is bringing Freya back early Sunday morning again also. hiiii :thumbsup: