lizzywizzy

I had my scan this morning, Everything is OK with the baby, it was hiccuping away merrily while the nurse was doing the scan which was funny, and relieving at the same time, means the little one is doing just fine, they dont know the cause of the weekend, but everything is OK now, so I dont mind the unanswered questions. Not much plans for the rest of today, just mooching around mums, may go to the cinema later, oh and get my stuff together for work tomorrow. I am hungry, but not too sure what I am hungry for :unsure:

I was lent the box set of series one and two on Friday, before the weekend I was an inbetweeners virgin lol. I spent all day yesterday while not on runescape or on facebook watching all of series 3 except the first episode on 4OD and taped and watched the finale this morning. I love the show, I have totally missed out, I so hope they make another series, there is so much potential for more, and to be just as funny... I <3 will!

You look soooo much like my friend Ben who I've not seen for like 6 years :-(

I woke up at 7am this morning, read some of my new book and now its gone 10am, im watching the inbetweeners, went through series one and two over the weekend, and am watching series three on 4OD ready to watch last nights season finale. I may actually get some good quality runescape playing time in while im still off work, am off until at least Wednesday as I am not going back until I have had my scan, but im trying to find things to keep me occupied lol I have just spent the last hour fighting with my dads stupid printer trying to get it to believe me that there was paper in there, as it was A5 not A4 I had to look at the loading instructions in case they were different...... it told me to load the paper to the right and slide the slider thing, which I did....... it wouldn't believe me that there was paper in there, short of going on a hormonal pregnant rage at the thing, someone saved me... and the printer by knocking on the door.... when I got back, I realised I had loaded it to the LEFT not the RIGHT :wall:

I have been awake for about 10 minutes so far today... I forgot I am staying at my mums at the moment and so I fell asleep with the windows wide open in my room and its now freezing, I forgot I wasn't at my flat, where the window in my room lets in no air.... BRRRRR its cold! Hopefully it warms up a little before I have to go to the hospital today :-/ Hopefully I will be able to get an appointment in the hospital in my home town today and not have to travel two hours by bus (will work out £5 for me and mum instead of £40 by train or taxi) as I will need to go with a full bladder..... 2 hours on a bus, in the freezing cold, needing to pee does not sound like fun. All the bleeding and stuff has stopped so once 9:30 comes along (It's 8:40 now) I can phone the birth centre and book my scan to check its all A-okay.... whoop whoop! Ross had to work this morning so I am having to take mum, well I dont have to take her but she wont let me go anywhere on my own at the moment so she had better come, also gives her a chance to see a scan :-D She last saw one 25 years ago with me, I am assuming that they are a lot different these days to when I was born. TODAY LOOKS LIKE IT CAN BE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!! WOOP WOOP!

dad made some Scottish stuffing with the roast dinner tonight, it was oaty, and sticky..... and generally so bad tasting it made me laugh...... thankfully not while dad was there, I explained that I didn't like it when he got back, but then again my crazy pregnant ways towards foods is a little screwed up at the moment so it may actually taste nice lol. Although I will say right this second the most rank thing I can think of to eat/drink is apple juice... I miss having that every morning for breakfast, now just the smell of it and im throwing up on the floor :(

I have been allowed out of bed... I can now venture to the sofa downstairs, which is cool, people are down here and so is the telly, even if I cant move around from the sofa :/ I think the problem is stopping, so hopefully it stops completely and I can get a scan tomorrow to make sure everything is okay with the little one..... I have been feeling sick today so that has reassured me that the little one should be OK.... back to tormenting me with wanting to throw up at any given point :-)

There wasn't any need for me to go to A&E although I am still not right, I am now stuck waiting for tomorrow to book another scan either in my local hospital or take a trip to Winchester early pregnancy ward to get the scan, but they need the bleeding to stop first.... I hate waiting! Being on forced bed rest is really boring me now... I am only allowed out of bed to use the toilet or have a bath.... not too hot a bath mind you - my mum has the heart of gold... but she is bugging me. Hopefully everything will turn out OK, this wasn't planned, but I have just settled into the fact I'm having a baby, I dont want to lose it :-/ I get tomorrow off work though, shame its this reason!

ended up getting sent home early from work today when i found some bleeding.... not great since I am 3 months pregnant and not had any before. Am now waiting to see if it doesn't stop and I need to go to A&E or it does stop and I have to arrange another scan tomorrow to make sure the little one is doing OK in there. I have now successfully cried on every single member of management in the last week, and I hate that! I hate not knowing what is happening even more. My midwife was not answering the phone when I tried to call for advice, so my brother ended up with a call from me crying down the phone, awkward much. Hopefully everything will be OK, I hope so, I mean, I had my scan on Thursday and the little one was OK, moving about merrily, hopefully it is OK :mellow: That has pretty much been my day.

on the first day in 5 months when I have the day off for no reason other than they didn't rota me in for today, when I have no place to be or nothing I need to do, I forget to turn my alarms off and get woken up at 9am this morning. Been awake since, mostly crying and playing on facebook... not how I imagined my free Sunday to go. Oh well :-/

the only thing I have learnt which has come like a kick in the teeth to be honest is that my ex has moved on..... which is fine, but ya know, im finding it hard, seems as i am the one who is sat here cooking his little bun in my metaphorical oven. it shouldn't have bothered me, I know it shouldn't, its been two months, I guess, well I dont know what I guess. Stupid hormones!

skeptical ~ yeah you use a needle :-) Although all the ones I have ever been given with my kits or bought have been metal, the plastic ones I suppose depend on how old you were while doing it lol. I did some in primary school so when I was around 6 or 7 and then didn't do any more until I was around 19 or 20 when I was complaining to mum that I was bored all the time so she bought me some starter kits to shut me up, and been doing them ever since, I have about 10 kits waiting to be done, however I will be taking a year off work as of April next year when I have my baby so any spare time, when not keeping the baby entertained will be cross stitching lol.

Not really unique, or a talent really, but in spare time, if im not sleeping I am usually doing cross stitch.

I was on the pill, and took the morning after pill and i am still pregnant, so i am not a walking advert for contraception working 100% lol. I would find it hard to bond with a baby or accept it if it came through rape. I know there are some people out there who would be able to love the child no matter what but to me every time i saw the child i would just see what happened :-/

In the bigger picture of things I am neither for or against abortion. I know I could not easily abort a baby, but I think rape and serious medical problems would be a serious factor to make me consider abortion. However while I would not easily choose abortion, I would not hold it against someone who had one. I am pregnant at the moment, and I am planning on keeping it (i am 10 weeks gone) I think the mother (and father to some extent) has every right to do what is right for them and the situation they are in. I do believe that they should lower the maximum limit for having an abortion to before 24 weeks, there was a story in one of the papers where a woman went into labour at a few days short of 24 weeks, and the baby survived(all be it for a few hours), although its highly unlikely that the baby could survive for a while at that early stage, I think it should be brought forward. I really do believe that every woman has the right to the last say as to what happens with her body, if she doesn't want to carry that child (Although pill/condoms/whatever should have been used) she should have the right to not carry it. Sees..... I am pretty sure that you cant get prosecuted for murder if you kill an unborn child, unless you have different laws against that, but im pretty sure that wouldn't be classed as killing someone here.

Had an interesting day at work today... was in a really pooty mood pretty much since I woke up, people were just making it worse. I managed to keep my calm, and keep myself to myself... mostly by just staying away from people. I have told a few of my managers ( That I know I can trust) about what is going on so at least some people at work know in case something happens. They are going to do a risk assessment for me tomorrow so that when I get back on Thursday I will know what I can and cant do on my department or around the store. I have lost 3 lbs, not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing... well a good thing as I am overweight, but maybe a bad thing for the baby? I am not sure, I will be asking the midwife thursday.... its still off saying I have the midwife. I am hoping that I get out of this pooty mood soon because its starting to annoy me now :-/ I led on the sofa earlier to watch last nights x-factor that dad had taped for me, and then 2 hours later I woke up... I suppose I had better get used to things like that happening lol. Today has in general... for me... been pooty!

i got woke up at 10 by my ex asking me if uve stopped hating him, as i dont feel sick today i dont hate him so much today lol. ive showered and am about to have a cooked breakfast, today may be a good day.

today i have come to portsmouth, went shopping, and bumbled about. had spagetti bolognese for dinner which i saw about a half hour later, it seems my morning sickness has kicked up a notch, i am fully hating my ex right now lol.probably will be in bed asleep by 10 pm because im now constantly tired....good times :-)

im not quite getting the .... no wait i get it lol no im not her lol ive not had any real cravings other than fruit, i am proper loving fruit at the moment however bananas act as a antiseptic apparently but they do help to stop me feeling sick. i spoke to my brother today who is out in the carribbean, he is happy for me, i was worried about what he would say about it.....now im more worried about them sailing into a force 5 hurricaine in the bermuda, hopefully they will get back safe :-/

it is :-D Although they are technically in Southsea, its all the same to me lol. Will probably go to gunwarf quays and also onto the HMS Victory... my brothers fiancée works on there so I get in for free :-D

I am going to visit my sister in law in Portsmouth (South coast of England if your not from the U.K :-)) My brother is on deployment and his fiancée is 5 months pregnant so I pop down there every so often to keep her company.

Today I have had a day off of work holiday, so me and my ex attended our first doctors appointment and booked our first midwife appointment. Other than the doctors and popping into the hospital to pick up a baby information pack I have done nothing but sleep and tidy my bed room. It saddens me to find out I cant brush my teeth at the moment without gagging, so I am going to try and get a different flavour toothpaste and see if that is a little better with my feeling sick :-) Tonight I will be packing to go away for the weekend, which after the week I have had I definitely need a weekend away from home lol

Thanks for the link Mage :-) To be fair, the only real thing that this baby is going to change things for me, in the short term is that I was planning on moving to Wales the beginning of next year, however I am not prepared to take the baby out of the country so that Ross cant see it. so I either wont move to Wales, or wait until the child is older.... As much as I want to leave, I am not the only one in this now. I dont mind moving back in with my parents, mum didn't want me to leave in the first place, but I honestly dont think it will be fair to bring a new born into a house of two bordering pensioners. :-)

I did not intend on starting a debate on abortion in this thread. And to those that are calling me a financial cancer on my parents, my move back was planned months ago as my landlady is selling our flat when our lease runs out, and i dont want to be moving house during Christmas, and as I spend Christmas with my parents anyway they asked me to stay a couple of extra weeks and find a new flat after the new year. I am not that inconsiderate to my parents to live with them when I have a baby, they are both 63, one works nights and one works days, to have a new born baby in the house would not be fair on either of them, so for that very reason I will not be living with them when I am ready to give birth. My choice to not have an abortion is nothing to do with religious beliefs, but a personal belief, personally I only agree with abortion if the child is conceived from a rape. Everyone has their own views on abortion and I would support any ones choice to abort, however it is not something I am willing to consider. It is all well most of you telling me to abort this baby, but while yes, I am single, I may not be in an amazing paid job, I will be able to give this baby a comfortable life, Ross is actually really happy I dont want to get rid of it as he is against abortion himself. I am not completely clueless around babies as my brothers have 7 children between the two and I have usually been on babysitting duty while they are in hospital with their partners. I am fine with feeding and changing, the only thing I am not comfortable with is bathing a baby as I have never had to do that, but that is something I will deal with, and I am not going to be on my own with this, Ross will be doing his fair share of taking care of the little one. It really does sadden me how most people automatically jump to tell someone to have an abortion, its really easy to do that over the internet, tell that to a pregnant ladies face and you are likely to get a punch in the face! Me and Ross had our first doctors appointment this morning, It went well and while we had some concerns about the baby as I was on the pill and took the morning after pill, we have been assured everything should be OK. We have our first midwife appointment Thursday morning which hopefully will go well.... I will have to have blood tests which i dont do well with, and if im still feeling sick I am liable to throw up, which is something i dont particularly want to do in front of anyone, but oh well.

No job? I work full time in a well paid supermarket and I am/was working towards management, financially I will be fine with a child, the moving in with mum and dad is a housing situation me and my flatmate have come into with our landlady not renewing our contract at the end of the agreement and selling the flat, otherwise i would not be moving in with them. Because taking a ECP the day of or after conception, it has not had time to grow into or establish anything.... having an abortion now... when it has a head, a heart, is starting to form arms and legs, no, that is now beginning to be a little person, I cant do that.