Estonian dude

Twisted my knee a bit while skiing today. Went skiing for the first time this winter and on like second or third minute already got hurt... But I am in a skiing course so I needed to continue. Now I got blood in my knee. YET AGAIN. Might have to go to hospital to have it drained out tomorrow.

Does United States even have a domestic ok alcoholic drink? Besides the good ol' Jack? And no, I don't count Puerto Rican as American.

Only one thing to keep in mind while exercising. NO ICE-COLD DRINKS DURING OR IMMEDIATELY AFTER EXERCISE. I suppose you know why. And I think I might be a weirdo, since I don't have a set routine, but when I do exercise even a bit on my own, I do it right before going to bed. I don't know why, but it helps me get better sleep.

Hey-hey-hey! I've read every post here. Just a reminder, have not yet experienced the feeling of being in a relationship. And I have my happy times. I have lived 20 years alone, and since like New Years' I don't think I've even felt really depressed or sadly. Even though by all counts I should, financially and temporarily in my studies I was a total boatwreck. I have only been drunk once since New Years'. I have a person I can trust. For now. And I don't feel really devastated or bad about what happened yesterday either. For my own surprise. Well, might be cause for the first time I didn't get stabbed in the back and run over by a train with the rejection. Somehow I feel perfectly neutral. I am able to live alone and enjoy life alone. Or well, alone I don't get along that well, but when I am with me mates, I can be happiest person alive at times. Ever since New Years' I've gotten a new energy in me. And as I said, the next month is going to be super busy. I cannot wait my 20th birthday enough. Right now I am set to meet at least 5 new girls. EDIT: Come on, you must've heard the 140% Russia meme :D Came from last presidential elections when somewhere in Caucasia 140% of the population had voted for Putin.

TROLOLOLOLOO@OPENING CEREMONY! Oh, that nostalgy on the 50's-90's part. I've ridden in more than half of these cars that drove on the stadium... Pretty nice show.

Lol@Murican flag-bearer. Pretty nice opening ceremony so far.

You get so pissed over 1 BSOD? Wow.

I was as into her as I've ever been to anybody. And as I said, I will be devastated tomorrow, but I think I will be fine tomorrow. It's not like I am not used to being hopelessly depressed and alone. I am gonna have the party of my life in a month. I will be celebrating 20th jubilee and I haven't celebrated my bday in 3 years. I will be holding it on Women's Day and I have a plan for it. And if I won't meet someone new there, I will be sorely disappointed.

It's way bigger deal than Summer Olympics for us. But unlike previous years, we really don't have medal candidates this year. Last 3 olympics we've always gotten at least a gold, but this generation is too old by now.

ON ANOTHER TOPIC: Met the girl I talked about today. Went to cafe and had a pleasant chat. After that, told her what I feel. She said the distance would be too bad. She had a similar relationship with a dude in my current city apparently. And she said it couldn't work out and she doesn't wanna try again. I think I am gonna be devastated tomorrow. And I will live on after that as a clean sheet, without anyone to pursue. Alone.

Apparently I am still awaited in the uni. Somehow I got 36 points on the last test. I thought it would be a miracle if I got over 20. And with that result I can continue without being exmatriculated.

I am not 13 anymore. I have learned enough here and elsewhere and I can maintain friendly relationships with females. I was told by a girl to be more of a jerk before. To be more direct, not so polite. And gonna meet a girl tomorrow. I ain't so useless or socially awkward or shy to know basic psychology.

I don't think I would ever go through with something like that. I don't trust anyone IRL enough for that. There is one person that knows a bit about what I feel and what I think. But she knows maybe half of what this thread has heard from me. And she thinks I am the most introverted person she has ever met. I've been hurt by my best friends way too much to ever even dare to admit I have such problems. My best mate thinks I have been with multiple girls. And that I have no problems whatsoever. I actually somewhat feel like I have dual personalities or something. Since when I am out with someone, I get along with everybody. Literally. Tonight I went out drinking with some punk dudes. Like serious, hardcore, mohawk and blue hair and chains punk dudes. And I didn't really feel too much out of place. I suit with everybody. Last freshmen party, called Retro at the finest nightclub in city - I knew half the bloody dancefloor. I get along with everybody really easily. And that makes everything so bloody hard to comprehend for me.

Ah sa ka vinge mees. 100 päeva rohkem onlines kui mina kokku old. Get online, nub. A certain Jason needs beating.

Nub.

Oh I FEEL SO ALIIIIVE! For like the first time in my life I have not been the whiniest person in my group. Those of you who read the relationship thread, might have noticed, I have had something going for me. And practically, I am as [bleep]ed as a university student can be. My bank account is 3€, my cashpile is 2 euros with cents and I have no money coming in for at least 15 days. I lost my governmental studying bonus and I have to pay 240€ if I just wish to continue studying here. Unless I failed my last exam, in which case I am just out. My only "real" source of income now on shall be only 50 euros a month which my dad is supposed to transfer to me every month, but this month for example I haven't seen a cent of it. And my rent is around 100€ a month. Pretty harsh. YET I am immensely happy. It is incredible, how much can happen with a few days. I don't even want to drink. What is absolutely unheard of.

I am really not even wishing that much for advice or anything. I just want to let you guys know that I am yet again one step closer to a relationship and I know a bit more about them. The last 2 evenings were the best ones I've had since... October I think. Since my trip to Indonesia, my dream land. And I feel like I have learned something, even though my mind tries to reject it, since it changes pretty much everything I know about myself... I am writing here because in real life I am a complete introvert. As I think I have said before, I have never really expressed my feelings or anything. I keep it all bubbling in me. And this is a place to vent. Luckily, I have found one other person that I hope I can trust and who is willing to slap or punch me in the face for being such a wuss. Someone who listens, and gets my problems. But even she knows just as much as you guys here.

The fact that she has to move away was already decided before I got to know her. But, she will be living close to my real home.

I have probably left out some or actually pretty large bits of information. I really like this girl. I have been out on a few dates with her. Problem isn't that I didn't have sex with her or anything. Even though she practically asked me if I wanted to. And we ended up sleeping together. Problem is that for once I was actually much more constrained and like keeping us down, if we could have had been. Like she actually liked me more and wanted more than I did. Even though I quite sure it was not the case. But I was afraid. And she moves away...

For it is not a one night stand. I've known her for about 3 months and we've been out before.

Someone should come over and punch me in the face. Really hard. I am such a [bleep]ing wuss. Woke up at the girl's place. Success?

I FEEL SO ALIVE! Just finished my last exam for this semester. I got 2 perfect days waiting for me. If I only had some money, even for one beer :D

Ha-ha, very funny. That's kinda too much.

One of the good parts of living in the shithole where I live is constant access to broadband speeds :P Can't wait for this thing to roll out in my region.

I have no idea what else to call it. English is not my mother tongue. Still, something pretty amazing for me.