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Okay so last night me and my girlfriend were talking (and talking, and talking...). We got onto the topic of weed. I explained to her how i have grown to dislike it, very much. I never had such a big issue with it, i even experimented with it myself at some point. When i moved to the US i stayed away from it completely, even though it was a lot easier to get a hold of there than it is here. I stayed away from it...i guess because it wasn't very appealing to me anymore. When me and my girlfriend started dating the first time, bit over 4 years ago, i smoked quite regularly. She hated it and one day told me it bothered her. I stopped. I guess i wanted to be that "i'll do anything for you, babe" guy. I did smoke again after that, when i went to South Africa for a year. Actually, i smoked very regularly then. Few times a day. She knew about it, and disliked this even more. But i guess since i had nothing to do in SA, this was a good way for me to pass the time. Anyway, so she went to the US 2 years ago (Cali) and started smoking there. And she became a big smoker. Everything on her FaceBook and Instagram was about smoking or getting high. At the time i didn't care because we weren't together and it had no impact on me. It annoyed me a bit, i must admit. Someone that had such a big issue with smoking now smoking more than i did "in my prime". So anyway, we talked about this. I told her how i felt about it, and i told her that this is the reason i haven't smoked in ~4 months. I used to moke maybe once every other week, with her and her friends, but that was really just because i didn't want to be the awkward sober guy in a room full of stoned people. I personally wouldn't have minded, but i knew it would have made all of them feel awkward. So anyway i told her how i felt about it, and that i kind of lost interest in it. I told her that, really, i would prefer to have nothing to do with it. I don't really want to be in the same room when they smoke. I would much rather excuse myself and occupy my time, for the rest of the night, with something else. Furthermore i explained to her how i felt about her interest in weed. The fact that even now, anything she comments on or likes on Instagram is about weed. I don't mind people who do that, but people who used to despise it like she did, and now acts even worse than i did...that bothers me. More-so if she's my girlfriend. I know that sounds kind of silly, even saying it i find it silly myself. But it is what it is. So after i told her this she obviously asked my why i felt this way, and i tried explaining this too. I told her that i didn't like it when she smoked because it changed her. She became someone she wasn't. Whether it makes her more relaxed or more hyper, it's still a change. It's not the person i "fell in love with", so to speak. You become attracted to a person because of their sober habits and sober personality. When she smokes, all of that changes and i might as well be with a stranger. Again, i know this sounds silly, but i'm sure it makes a tiny bit of sense. I told her that i felt "cheated" in a way. She still gets to spend time with me when she's high, but i spend time with someone else. So after a long talk she asked me what i wanted her to do about this. I told her that the choice is really hers, but i don't really want any part of the smoking. If she wishes to still smoke, she can do so with her friends. If her friends want to smoke while i'm there, i'll leave. I don't want to talk about smoking, hear about it, see it, smell it, have any part of it. I'm not being mean or harsh, but something as stupid as smoking is not worth the risk it carries. Obviously her response to this is that i was being ridiculous, "weed isn't even a drug". Okay, that's her opinion. She tried defending weed, and her use of it. I found it kind of funny. I told her that she was addicted to smoking, because she was doing her best to defend it and prove how she can quit if she wanted to, and it's nothing serious "it's just weed", etc. I found it hilarious when she said it wasn't addictive. Sure, it might not contain any addictive substances, but it's still very much addictive. As is anything in this world. You might not get addicted to the "drug" itself, but you sure as hell get addicted to the feeling it brings you. So... i told her how i felt. i told her i disliked it, and why i disliked it. I told her i disliked her smoking, and why i disliked her smoking. I told her she could continue smoking if she wanted too, but that i wanted no part of it. Now i really just want to know if i am being unreasonable? Am i unreasonable for saying i'd rather be kept out of it? Am i unreasonable for telling her i disliked her smoking? Also, to clarify: The reason i hate smoking so much here is because it's the middle east. If you get caught with even half a gram on you, you go to jail. You're not just going to sit in jail and stew for a few days, no. You'r going to be taken to a small, soundproof room, they're going to sit you on a nice wooden chair and they're going to ask you a few questions. If you don't give them the answers they want, they're going to start beating you. And they will not stop until you talk, or end up in ICU. I know this because 3 of my friends spent a week in ICU (on 3 seperate occasions) because they were caught with possession (actually, one of them was just in the same room as people smoking, he didn't even smoke anything himself). That is exactly the reason i do not want to be involved in any way. Especially not with my girlfriend's friends. They have a major problem with being discreet.

I set myself a goal of getting 50m Magic xp at Glacors (whether i'll stick to it it or not, i don't know yet). For the first 1m Xp i've been using Seasinger with Virtus Boots and Gloves, with a Chaotic Staff. With this setup i'm averaging 78 kills per hour (as i have been ever since i started using this setup). This is my average over about 2k kills. I was wondering what i could do to improve this. I can afford either Virtus Book and Wand, or a Virtus Set, but not both (right now). I can, however, afford a Virtus Set and Wand with an Abyssal Orb, but i'm not sure if that would be better than sticking to a Chaotic Staff. I don't have the money for T90 weapons or armor, so that's not really an option. Another thing, will switching from Seasing to Virtus increase my KPH by any significant amount? If it gets me 5 or 6 more KPH i don't really see it as worth it, since that will only save me a few hours in the long run, but if it gets me like 10KPH more, it might be a different story. I believe my ability usage is not the problem. I've played around with it quite a bit and think the one i'm using now is "good".

Well something weird is going on in my house. So my parents have always had a bit of an issue with me and my girlfriend dating cause she's...not white. But recently they seemed to have warmed up to her a bit. I guess it's because i kind of invite her to family events and stuff, so they are forced to be in her company a bit more often now. I also talk about her a lot more than i used to in the past, so they hear about her a lot more. So it's my girlfriends birthday tomorrow, and last night i briefly mentioned this to my mom, just to let her know i won't be home for dinner. This morning my mom left the house at like 9, and 2 hours later she came back and handed me a package and said "Oh, this is for your girlfriend :) " My girlfriend is going to freak out when she sees it, haha. I certainly didn't expect this, and i know she isn't going to either.

I tried doing Solo Nex yesterday and the first 2 phases actually went really well. I managed to get to Blood Phase without having to eat once, but Blood gave me so much trouble. Nex actually managed to heal itself completely, which was frustrating to watch. I guess i wasn't doing enough damage, or maybe i was doing something else wrong. I was using Drygores with Tetsu and Torva boots and gloves. Any tips on how i should do the Blood Phase?

This is kind of an awkward thing for me to do... but i don't really have a friend i can talk to regarding this. I can't discuss this with my parents, and i don't feel like seeing a therapist again. So i figured that i might as well give it a shot here, and see if anyone might be able to give me some advice. So to start off... I'm 23 years old. I live with my parents, i'm unemployed, i'm studying to become a pilot, and i have a girlfriend. But i have a really bad anger problem. I would consider myself to be a happy person. I don't really ever feel sad or depressed. I enjoy my life. I enjoy what i have, and who i have. I have a great girlfriend. We have our ups and downs, but that's to be expected. My relationship with my parents and sister is alright, i think. I don't really ever argue with them. I tend to avoid arguments and fights as much as i can, with people i know. I think i have a pretty good diet. I don't eat a lot of junk food, i drink maybe 1 can of soda a day, i sleep good enough. So i don't think any of that might be the cause of my anger. I have extreme road rage. To the point where i'd put other's lives in danger to prove a point. I'll give an example: A few days ago me and my girlfriend went out for drinks. On the way back home a cab driver cut me off. It happened so suddenly that i had to swerve out of the way while slamming on the breaks. I almost ran up the sidewalk. As soon as this happened all rationale left me, and all i saw was red. I put my foot down hard on the gas, caught up with the cab, pulled in front of him (going about 60kmph) and slammed on my breaks. I put the car in park, got out of my car and walked up to his door. I opened his door (and broke the door handle in the process), grabbed him by the scruff of his neck (or at least i think that's the correct term), and continued to yell at him. His passengers sat quietly in shock and awe in the back while i was basically man-handling the driver. I went back to my car, opened my trunk and took out my tire-iron (again, i think that's the right term). I walked back to his car and broke both sides of his headlights, put the tool back in my car and drove off. My girlfriend didn't say anything at first, but after about 5 minutes of silence she went off. And understandably so. Not only did i put out lives in danger, but also the lives of 4 other people in the taxi cab. And this all because i couldn't control my anger. We had a bit of an argument, which led to a fight, which led to things being said. All of which could have been avoided if i just ignored the cab driver cutting me off. This is the first time it's been this bad, but similar things have happened. About twice a month i'll stop in the middle of the road to get out of my car and yell at someone cutting me off in traffic. Not very mature, but it's something i find extremely hard to control. I'm 6'1 and i weigh 140lbs, and i know it. I don't think i'm bigger than i am, and i know one of these days i'll follow my usual routine of yelling at a driver and he's going to be 6'5 300lbs and knock my face in. I kind of want to avoid that. But this isn't the only problem. The problem is that i don't have a lot of patience. If my girlfriend asks me to go pick her up from work at 3pm and she's only in my car by 3:01pm, i get annoyed. It's only 1 minute, but i still lose my temper because of it. As i mentioned earlier, i'm studying to become a pilot. I think in a plane is the only time i don't lose my temper, or i don't get annoyed. But the problem is that each day that goes by i lose more and more interest in actually being a pilot. I've been studying for 3 years now when i was meant to finish in a year and a half. Main reason for the delay has been procrastination. I want to give up and do something i really love but i have already invested 3 years of my life and over $80 000 US in this, so it's not an option for me anymore. I don't think that's the cause either. I'm very frustrated at this though. I know this is going to be a big problem in my future, especially with me and my girlfriend. We have a lot of arguments. Small, but still a lot. It would often ruin the day/weekend, and it's all because i can't let go of the little things. Like i said earlier, i consider myself to be very happy. I have everything and everyone in my life that i want and need (for now). My daily routine is a bit like this: I'll wake up at around 8am. I'll go on RS for a short while, then on YouTube. I'll go take a shower, get dressed, then start studying till i eventually had enough. Then it's back to YouTube or video games till i go to bed. This is my routine every day except on weekends where instead of video games i would see my girlfriend and/or friend. Perhaps my anger and frustration comes from the fact that i don't feel productive? When i was in Florida, flying every day, i don't seem to remember having this issue. But in Florida life was also a lot different and i didn't have to deal with a lot of the things i have to deal with at home. I'm hoping that when i eventually start working, things will change. But i'm scared that they won't. I'm tired... physically tired. I'm tired of getting upset/angry/moody/mad so easily. I'm tired of putting my own life at risk because of other drivers. I'm tired of arguments with my girlfriend, and i'm tired of her having to put up with it. I want to stop. I want to stop getting mad.

Just kind of wondering how long it takes to do the Kiln now, on average? I had a Fight Caves task i quit out of early because i got bored, and i'm thinking i might see if the Kiln manages to keep me entertained for longer. Also, is the Obsidian Armor good enough? What should i be taking in term of supplies/summons?

Yesterday me and my girlfriend "celebrated" our 9 month ''anniversary'' which is ironically also 4 years when we first started dating. Went for dinner at some Italian restaurant. Went for a walk in one of the parks, got some ice cream, then went back to her house for a movie. Can't believe it's been this long. Also, today marks the 4th month since the last time i smoked weed. It's been a lot easier than i thought. My friends obviously still smoke, so i'm often in company of people who smoke, but i really feel no desire to do it anymore.

Yeah, just don't expect a "relationship" from her. She just got out of a very serious relationship, so she's going to be looking for someone to replace her old boyfriend. She's not going to be with you, she's going to be with him as you. If that makes sense.

Have you ever considered not caring so much about being alone? Just because you're alone doesn't mean you're lonely. Just because you're single doesn't mean you're a loser. Just because you don't hook up with different girls every weekend doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. I don't think anyone should commit to a relationship before they can be okay with being alone. You're going to put way too much pressure on the other person, and on the relationship, and it's going to be a ticking time bomb from the start. And casual sex would be out of the question too, because it won't be casual. If you can't be okay with being alone, then you're going to fall in love with every girl you sleep with, and you're going to be depressed every time they don't text back or pick up the phone.

They still drop both at the same time. I got a pair few hours after yesterday's update.

[hide=Drama, drama, drama]Me and my GF's dad got in a bit of a heated situation yesterday (again). I went to her house at around 2PM. I helped her prepare dinner for later that night (lasagna). We left the dirty dishes in the sink (only 4 things), because we had to leave to go pick something up (in quite a rush). We got back around 3:30PM and her dad was busy in the kitchen washing the dishes and cleaning. We went to her room and starting watching a movie. About 15 minutes later her mom gets home from work and the first thing her dad says, as he opens the front door for her, "Tell your daughter to wash her own dishes. I don't want to come home and slog over dirty dishes". No "Hello", "Hi", "How was work". Nothing. She's barely set foot in her house and she's already being yelled at. Last week she had to spend a day in Hospital because she had high blood pressure and they didn't want to release her. We kind of just sat in her room and tried to ignore the yelling that them proceeded. After about 5 minutes of yelling my GF couldn't take it anymore so she went into the living room to tell them to shut the [bleep] up. Her dad... my god... It was like listening to a 13 year old boy arguing. I don't even know how to describe it, but he would keep going on and on and on forever even after she (his wife) stopped listening to her. So anyway, my GF goes to the living room and tells him to stop yelling at her like she's a dog. He tells her to "Shut your [bleep]ing mouth. I don't want to clean your shit after being out the whole day." Okay... this is about where i snapped. I went to the living room, told him to calm down. It was 4 dishes, and the reason we left it was because we had to leave in a hurry. We planned on cleaning it when we got back home, like we always do. He told me to "Shut your [bleep]ing mouth and go back to her room, this has nothing to do with you". I could feel my blood getting slightly warmer. I told him again to calm down, it's not a big deal. He told me that after a long day out the last thing he wants to do is clean the dishes and clean the house. "A long day out? What the [bleep] are you doing out of the house anyway? You don't have a job, and you can't be bothered looking for a job. It's to easy for you to beg family for money, and if that fails you beg your daughter for money. You can't support your kids, you can't support your wife, and you can't even support yourself. You're killing your wife with your constant fighting. Your house is a [bleep]ing mess. I feel dirty just looking at your kitchen. Your oven, stone and microwave oven looks like someone took a shit on it, 5 years ago, and didn't bother cleaning it. Your kitchen walls are layered with grease and dirt, and there's always dirty dishes standing around. I make a point of it to always wear at least socks when i'm here, because if your kitchen is this dirty i don't want to know what's hiding in the rest of the house. I tried my best to help you get a job (i actually got an issue he had sorted out, and got him an interview that he never showed up for) and you spat in my face by never even showing up for the interview. You do nothing all day except spend money you don't have and have no right to spend in the first place". I wanted to continue but at this point i think i got to him, as he grabber me by the neck. I look him right in the eyes and taunted him. I told him to hit me, and he would be on the next flight back to Pakistan, as i would make sure he get's deported (which would actually be extremely easy in this situation). He let go of me, and knowing that i had just "won the battle" i told him to either shut his mouth and behave like an adult, and treat his family that's been supporting his worthless ass for the last 4 years with the respect they deserve, or i'm calling the cops for attempted assault and he can spend a few days thinking things in a jail cell. My GF and her mom were still standing there, in silence. They had really no idea what to say. This is the second time in like a month that something like this has happened between the two of us. He knows me well by now, and he knows i don't make threats when it comes to my GF. He knows that i have no issue doing whatever i can to get him deported. My GF and her mom knows this too, and by now they are so fed up with his shit that they can't be bothered with him either. But again, due to some stupid sponsorship laws here, he is their only hope at staying in the country for now. So anyway, he stood there silent looking at me for a few seconds, and i kept my gaze. He turned around and walked to his bedroom like a child that just got grounded, muttering to himself. I turned to my GF and her mom, apologized for my behavior and told them that if he ever so much as raises his voice at anything or anyone in that house (whether it's at the TV during a sports game, the cat, or either of them, heck even if he falls and breaks a leg and cries out in pain) i want them to call me and i'll be over to take care of it. I said this loud enough for him to hear. I felt like i needed to get a drink after all of this. All the yelling had given me a headache so we just went to a hotel close by and had something to drink. When we got back about an hour later he was still in his room, and her mom was watching TV. We spent the rest of the night in her bedroom watching movies and stuff, and things outside were completely silent. Today at around 4PM i get a text from her mom saying she came home and the house was cleaner than it had ever been. The oven and stove looked like they were new, the floors were so clean she could see her face it in, and on top of that her husband apologized (something he hasn't done in 3 years apparently). He didn't raise his voice once, in fact he didn't really say much in general. So she wanted to thank me for scaring him straight. I felt really bad (not for him, but for the situation) at first, because i hate being disrespectful to other people. I have always been as respectable as i could to any person i meet in real life. But this guy just has a way of getting me in a bad mood. I'm not saying what i did was right, i'm not saying it was wrong either. I'm not happy about it, but i'm not upset either. It had to be done, and it had to be done in the most disrespectful manner possible. But i still feel bad...[/hide] On a happier note... Yesterday morning i finally got my new car. Have been waiting for it for about 9 weeks now. It was a long wait, but well worth it. It's been about 2 and a half years since i last owned a Mustang, and never thought i'd get one again. But i'm happy i did. She's gorgeous.

Yeah i find it totally stupid that Kree can interrupt Rapid Fire.

I've been trying to up my DPS a bit and right now the only things i can really switch out on every armor set are the boots and gloves. So i was wondering if switching from t85 Tank to T80 Power would at all be worth it? Since the 9.5k LP is probably a bit overkill for what i do (TDs/Glacors/Bandos/Arma/DKs/Slayer) i figured i could give it a try, but i'm not sure if the slight damage boost will even be that noticeable?

Weapon Poison is working pretty damn well. I tried using Steel Titan today but i feel like i need to use Melee/Mage instead of Range/Mage then. Since the Steel Titan uses mainly Ranged attacks no matter how i position it. I don't want to spend 10 seconds trying to get it in the right position to use Melee, since that would make using a Titan kind of useless...

I don't like drama. I hate it. I try to avoid it best i can. I'd much rather walk out of a room and go sit by myself than deal with drama. I don't care if it's drama from my sister, my parents, my friends or my girlfriend. She knows this very well, too. Whenever there's drama between the two of us, i'll go outside, have a cigarette, and come back when i feel like she has calmed down or i have calmed down. However, this doesn't stop either of us from being honest with each other. Of course, not 100% honest. There are things i won't tell her, and things she won't tell me (i think). She's actually an extremely honest person. She'll tell me whatever is on her mind no matter how much it'll upset/anger/enrage me. And she expects me to do the same, and for the most part i do. I believe that this has not only made our relationship stronger, but our friendship too. I can easily say, without a doubt in my mind, she's my best friend. And i believe that's only because of our honesty. We can be ourselves when we're with each other. We don't have to hide this or that because someone finds it annoying. I don't have to hold my tongue because i'm scared to offend someone. I can say and do what i want when i want. If people in your life are as disposable as you make them out to be, then you should me more willing to be honest. Regardless of the outcome. Whether it causes drama or not. You don't need to deal with the drama, ever. The door is always there, and you're always willing to take it. If you need to lie (omit) to someone just to keep them happy (and in doing so keep yourself "happy"), you're doing yourself an injustice and no one else. If someone wants to share their honesty with you, same rule applies. You don't have to sit there and listen. You're more than able to tell them you really don't give a shit, get up, and leave. It's really that simple.

Tbh, i would take 10 points out of Vitality, and a few from Str and put them in Faith. I assume you're planning on using Darkmoon/Sunlight Blade, so you would gain a bigger advantage with higher Faith. Also i think Ornstein's Spear's lightning damage scales with Faith, i might be wrong. High Vitality is really over rated in PvP. None of my PvP builds have more than 1000 HP anymore, and i still manage to win 80% of my fights.

Weapon poison++. Also, when you switch gear, there's a small global cooldown. You'll have to spam click an ability so you don't autoattack. Oh, i'll try spamming it next time. Thanks. And what exactly is the use of the Poison? I don't have any experience with it since EoC, clearly.

I'm struggling to use abilities soon as i switch combat styles. No matter what i do, it seems like an auto attack is forced before i can use any ability. This slows down my KPH a lot. Right now i'm getting around 65. I think if i can figure out how to use an ability right away, instead of having to way a few seconds, it would speed up my kills a lot. Also, what are the potions next to the Prayer Renewals?

Sounds about right.

You mean "I am what i am, whatever" or "I think i'm the shit but i'm too scared to let people know"?

I believe there might be a #4. Kind of a combination of one, two, and three. Probably more Beta than Alpha. This is the guy that's shy. He's the nice guy. Not extremely confident. Hesitant to initiate a conversation. Not great at starting a fire, but pretty good at keeping it going. If he get's lucky, great. If he doesn't, he's not going to care much ("I wasn't expecting to get laid, anyway"). If he does get laid though, he's probably going to try and pursue a relationship. If he succeeds, he's going to make that girl (or guy) a bit part of his life. Not his whole life, but a very big part of it. But as soon as he get's into a relationship with this girl/guy, he's going to become more confident. "If she likes me, and wants me, then surely others do too?". He's still going to stay exclusive to her, because he doesn't want to risk [bleep]ing up what might be his only chance at regular sex. But he's going to become slightly more dominant. Probably just enough to fool her for a while, before she catches on to him. This is not his home-ground, so eventually he's going to make a mistake. I agree that relationships, for the most part, are extremely predictable. Statistics had to have come from somewhere, am i right? But one thing to keep in mind, especially in modern days, is culture. It has been for a while (and is becoming more so every day) "acceptable" for people of different cultures to date/marry/whatever. And this is where the game changes. Many cultures to this day raise their offspring different to the traditional "western" way. If you were raised a certain way up to the age of 21, it's going to be very hard for you to change that even if you have complete freedom for the rest of your life. I know this might seem extremely vague, so i'm willing to explain if i need to. But if you get what i mean, then great.

I'm not really sure how to kill them anymore. Last time i killed them was way before EoC. I have all the Ports gear and Chaotics (cause i'm cheap). Oh and i have Death Lotus Darts and WE1 and WE2 gear for what it's worth. So what would my setup be? Summoning Fam worth it? Is luring still the same? Inventory? Thanks in advance.

Oh, she's moving away as in...moving. I thought you meant moving as in getting distant. I misunderstood.

She moves away because you didn't make a move. Chances are she probably wanted you to do something more. Chances are she expected you to spend the night but go to bed late, if you catch my drift. I understand why you are scared though. It's human nature. It happens to a lot of people. And regret usually follows. Will you make this mistake again? Probably. But each time you'll get closer and closer. Many of us have been there. Heck, when i was in Florida the same thing happened to me and Claire, a few times. She'd sleep over at my house, and i'd be too scared to actually make a move. It was complicated because sometimes she really just wanted to sleep. So it kind of turned into a guessing game. Does she want it tonight or not? Should i bother trying? Do i want to get shot down? Do i want the awkward vibe between us when she tells me to put it back in my pants and go to sleep? Only way to find out is by going for it. [bleep]ing out will create bad habits. Take my word for it. I've been with my GF for almost 9 months now and i still have trouble reading these situations. I still have trouble figuring out when she wants it or not. Why? Because i didn't take my chances in the past. I didn't get to learn from my mistakes. I preferred to be the "gentleman" (in my own mind). Chances are if you posted "I tried to [bleep] her and got shot down, now she hated me" you would have been greeted with much more positive replies. "At least you tried" "Can't win 'em all".

There there, one day we can move in together. Trust me when I say you'll love it. Being a foreigner, you'll have a lot more success with the ladies, and even the men. i Kobe you too man, i Kobe you too. Pretty sure if i move to anywhere in Australia i'll hear a lot more Afrikaans there than i do in South Africa, haha. Speaking of which, yesterday i read something on News24 about one of our politicians going to Australia to get the South Africans there to vote for the ANC (African National Congress, which is currently "in power"). It's a huge joke because most (if not all) of the South Africans that are living in Australia at the moment are there because of the ANC and their Affirmative Action, or BEE (Black Empowerment Employment) as they like to put it. [bleep]ing hilarious. Our government is completely deluded.