Noxx

Last weekend i got extremely bored and decided to finally buy Skyrim. Game always seemed pretty interesting so i decided to take a chance. Dumbest thing i ever did. It is now Thursday and i have not left my room since Saturday evening. I woke up this morning thinking it was Tuesday. I somehow managed to lose 2 days? Curse you Skyrim. Really fun game, although i feel like i'm doing things terrible wrong. I watched a few T&T videos on YT a yesterday to help me out with some money making and saw that so many people already have Deadric stoof at like level 30, and i am level 32 still rocking the Glass stuff. Haha, but it's a really fun game :D

Yeah actually got the Hitman Series earlier today. Fun so far. Been thinking about AC3 but some people say it's not really that good. Although it seems like a lot of fun. Metal Gear is PS3 only right?

Wonder if anyone can help me. Looking for a new game (PC). Something similar to Tomb Raider/Splinter Cell, i suppose. Nothing 1st Person. Something that's lengthy with the possibility to replay. Any ideas?

Turns out the love triangle is no longer a triangle. She left him because he was boring. She kind of wants to get back with me, or at least that is what i'v been told my several people. We have still kept contact the entire time this mess has been going on, but now that i actually have a chance to get back with her again things seem extremely awkward. I'm not sure why. I suppose it's because we are spending a lot more time together now. Not always alone, actually usually we're in the company of my/our friends. So we don't get to really have that much alone time. I feel like i've been smothering her a bit though, with the constant texting so i have decided to lay off a bit. i don't want to push her away. in fact, i am going to make her work now. She made the mistake to leave me (okay i had fault in it too, a lot). But i guess i should make her work a bit, at least. In other news though, not entirely relationship related, but in a way it is. I found something out this weekend that pretty much changed the way i view my life. I realised i have deep psychological issues. Issues that set me up for failure no matter how much the odds are in my favor. It's something that will most likely play a bit role in my future. I might lose my medical, which means that a career as a pilot will be something i'll never be privileged to do. I've been in a bad state since i found it out. I've been extremely bi-polar since then. In fact, i now realise that i have been this way for a good 12 months now but only now realise it. That is a big reason a lot of my relationships have not worked out for me this past year. I guess i'm a [bleep]ing loony. It all became very clear to me as i was thinking about various girls i've met this past year. I've had so many chances to be happy but somehow i would always sabotage myself by doing the things i know they hate. With Meghan i kept on asking her what was going on between the two of us. I kept on asking her for an answer. I really didn't care what she was going to say because i enjoyed spending time with her regardless of where it was going. But i knew she hated it, so i persisted. With Claire i got too close. I never wanted to, because what we had was perfect. A bit of sex over the weekends and a few times during the week. Jesus, who cares if we're dating or not then? And then with my neighbor, i knew that if i ignored her she was the type of person that would not ask me what was wrong and why i was not talking to her. She believed me when i told her i was different and i always do things for a reason. So i pushed her away that way. It's funny how you are always your own worst enemy.

Gotta agree with Muggi. I sometimes find myself doing the same thing. "She really isn't that good looking" , or, "The way she acts is kind of putting me off." Bullshit. I'm just too chickenshit to go over there and talk to her because i fear rejection. But let me tell you something. Rejection is a part of life. Last night i followed through with the deal i made with myself. If i see a girl that caught my attention i would go talk to her. So i saw a girl, and i went up and talked to her. Was a bit messy at first (which she thought was kind of cute) but it started going better. The only thing that worked against my favour was when i told her i was only a student here. Right away she knew i would probably leave soon so i got the rejection. I said bye, went back to my friends. They were full of jokes about it ("Haha, you got rejected") but some random group of guys standing behind us overheard and told them at least i was the one with the balls to actually talk to her. And that, my friend, is what it's all about. So what if things are awkward. So what if you get rejected. It's not always going to be the case. Probably more than 70% of the time it won't be, and you will end up getting from her what you want.

I am... frustrated. So the past few weeks have been pretty quiet in terms of girls. I guess i've had a few chances when we went out, but i never followed through. I'll start off with last friday night, which was the most frustrating for me. We're out. I see this girl looking at me (well actually i was looking at her and she happened to look up). She smiles at me and i smile back. She waves at me and i give her another "shy" smile. And then i just stand there. My friend looked at me in disbelief. She was actually a girl he made a comment about earlier saying how hot she was, and dear god she was. She was gorgeous and everything in me told me to go talk to her, but i was frozen. Fast forward an hour. We're on the dance floor. I make eye contact with a girl and smile at her. She gives me a long stare, and i keep eye contact. Later that night she walked past me on her way to the toilet and i catch her eyes again. She gives me the "please talk to me" stare. What do i do? I watch her walk by. So i thought to myself before we were about to leave, that i was going to go talk to her. I stood there for about 5 minutes trying to convince myself to go talk to her, but something in me just could not move. It's utterly frustrating because i know that chances are i won't get rejected. I don't mean to be cocky at all, i really don't. But i just feel like i have something different to me. Actually, i know i have something different to me. And i suppose i'm not terrible looking either, which isn't a bad thing. But something in me, the past few weeks, have been keeping me from getting out there again. I've made a deal with myself though, today, that if we go out tomorrow and i see either of them again and we share a similar moment (or any other girl for that matter) i'm going to act like a man and go over there and just talk to them. In other news, the neighbor love triangle girls... well i basically decided to just be friends with her. And it worked for a while, till she told me she misses me. She came over the one day and we spent hours just talking. She can over at about 11 am and before we realised it was already 6 pm. We spent the entire time just talking. She told me she feels something really special for me. But the past few days her actions have not matched her words. She went back home for a while and only got back on Monday. Today was the first time i have seen her since. When she saw me she dropped her flight bag (this was at school), ran over to me and hugged me. I was surprised to say the least. She tells me often how much she misses me, but never really does anything about it. We hardly see each other anymore. She talks like she loves me, like she wants to be with me, but nothing is coming of it. I'm trying not to pay much attention to it, because i am very much familiar with the games girls play (they're actually similar to the games guys play). Part of me wants to punch her in the face and tell her to wake the [bleep] up (of course i am joking, i do not support abuse), but then part of me wants her to struggle a bit longer till she realises what she had in me, and what she has given up. I am sure i had a question to ask before i started writing this, but my mind is so full of L = 1/2 rho x V^2 S that anything else kind of just slips away.

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Wow how old is that picture? Must be a few years. Sumondskull6 used to be one of my closest "rs friends".

When are you getting 120 DG ffs?

I just got BO2 last night. I've been hearing from a lot of my friends that BO2 is a lot harder than any of the other CoD games. So i was a bit skeptical about buying it at first because i'm not exactly an amazing CoD player and i don't want to be dying 50 times a game. But i have played a few games now, and i actually find it a lot easier than most of the other CoD games. I've been doing pretty alright. First time i've ever managed to reach and maintain a 1.0+ KDR in a FPS game. Been playing with the PDW and i'm not really sure if my class is good, but it seems to be working pretty alright for me. Really fun game, in all honesty.

Agreed, but most of them are 1 def pures which drop like flies vs rune pures :D Eh, i don't really know about that. I mean i agree with the part of them being mostly 1 Def pures, but not with the latter part. Almost certain a 1 Def vs. Rune Pure of same level will destroy the Rune Pure. That is pretty much the only reason 1 Def Pures have always been so attractive.

It's actually quite funny that calling a girl "dude", "bro", etc actually works on some girls. And when i say works, i mean it makes them more attracted to you.

07RS brought back a part of the community i was happiest to see go: Pkers. I've already seen a few videos on YT of people PKing ("rushing/pjing"). Personally i don't really care for rushing or w/e too much but its the #gf, #yougotdropped, #yoloswag420kush; #owned attitude that really just.... it just pisses me off to be honest. That's probably why i was so for the EoC because i knew it would take away a rotten part of the community, but now they're back...

Oh i should have probably read the update a bit better, didn't realise i can do part of it. I shall get working on that then.

Ah alright thanks. I was still maging QBD because i thought it was better. I guess i should start ranging since i have a Royal xBow somewhere in my bank. I should probably get working on some Dungeoneering too then. As for the new quest, i doubt i can do it. Some of the quests required to do it (ROTM) requires me raising my Def, which isn't really an option for me. But thanks for the rest of the info :)

Been away from RS now for most of the new year. Been on every now and then but nothing too serious. I've missed quite a few of the updates and was just wondering about a few things. I know they "fixed" duel wielding, and i've heard it's on par with 2h melee now. From one of the other forum threads i read that Chaotic Claws were now a good option for duel wielding and just wanted to confirm that this was in fact the case? Also, where would 2h be better than dw and the other way around (aside from Multi Combat of course, where 2h>dw). Also when it comes to maging, it seems that my trusty Master Wand is now pretty much shit. I tried doing QBD with it last night and i spent over 5 minutes on the first 2 phases. I tried it again with a SoL and it went much better, but still not as fast as it used to be. So in term of Magic PvM what would be the best way for me to go now? I can't really afford Ahrims/Virtus right now so those are pretty much out of the question. Would it be best for me to get a Chaotic Staff?

Gas was not really the problem, but the offramp i was supposed to take they were saying was closed and the detour would have been another 20 miles or something like that (in total), which would have put me close to being empty haha. But at least the road i had to take opened up by the time i got there.

Got stuck in traffic for 3 hours today on my way back from the exams. Was terrible.

She's not busy. She's waiting for something. No one goes to a school bench/park bench to study or read (unless they're middle aged). She's just trying to find something to fill her time till she has to do what she needs to do. I'd approach her. Sit down next to her and ask her what she's burying herself in. And go.

So funny thing happened today. Muggi is going to have a really big laugh about this, and have a big facepalm at me. So me and my ex were talking today. I think she misses me. She has a big smile on her face the entire time i'm talking. It's really nice. I'm still not 100% sure what i want to happen between the two of us. But yeah various topics were raised today. So first of all i mentioned how one of my friends from back home got married this weekend, and how it seems like everyone is either getting married or having babies. She mentioned her mom saying the same thing and her mom then asked her what her plans were for the future. One thing led to another, and her mom brought me up and asked me if she thinks (my ex) she will evr marry me. I kind of laughed because at one point i really thought she was the girl i would end up with eventually (and a part of me still thinks so). I feel like over the past few weeks we've gotten closer than we've ever been because we talk a lot more than we used to. So we kind of joked around about the getting married thing for a few minutes and i guess we both kind of realised that it might actually be a good possibility that it will happen one day. So anyway, i told her about my plans to move out a month or 4 after i go back home. Told her i want to get a place for me and my sister, because i don't want her living with my parents anymore. They fight too much and it's destroying their entire relationship. She then mentioned how she and her friend thought of doing the same thing "so maybe the 4 of us should just get one big house and live together". For a moment there i thought it would be a great idea. I told her finding a 4 bedroom house would not be hard, and it would cut the cost of rent for each of us by a lot. The company i'll be working for will already pay for a house for me, so if i live with more people it means that my salary basically increases. But then i thought of what Muggi said "don't move in with her right away" and i started laughing so hard. I just couldn't believe what had just happened. But anyway it's still about 4 or 5 months till this is even worth thinking about seriously. I told her we'll see how things are when i get back home and we see each other again. No use making plans now. Just thought it was kind of funny. Also, i've been talking to claire a lot lately. Actually talking to her. As one friend to another. I decided to change the way i respond to girls. Instead of always trying to tell them what they want to hear (in hopes got getting into their pants) i decided to just be real for once. Be me, and be stupid and silly like i always am. make my stupid jokes, say my stupid things, act my stupid way. I told her that i missed hanging out with her. We were meant to go do something this weekend, but i was caught up with my studying so it really wasn't a good time. Maybe next weekend i'll take her out for lunch. She's a really awesome person. Amazing girl and i feel extremely honored to have met her.

Had a pretty good day today. Woke up early to study, had an exam at 9:30. Had to leave home at around 6:30 because it's just over an hour and a half's drive to the examination center. On the way there i was pretty nervous. I had never gone there alone so i had the GPS out to make sure i was going the right way. As i come off one of the off-ramps from the interstate i see a sign saying "Toll Ahead" or something of the sorts. So i'm looking out for the multi-lane toll booths like they usually have and i pass a small little booth right as i leave the off-ramp to join the next road and suddenly it came to me that i had just ran through the toll without paying. I was so busy looking at the GPS to make sure that i got onto the right road that i completely missed it, and because it wasn't what i expected at all. So the rest of the way there i was nervous about what would happen. So i guess i forgot about it and on the way home i passed the toll booth again, this time i paid at least. But before i passed it i saw a sign saying that if you fail to pay the toll you would be fined $100. So i took the number at the toll and phones them right away to explain what had happened. Told them i was on my way to an exam, unfamiliar with the location, etc. They were very understanding and told me that that $100 is only if you fail to pay it within a week. So they said i should call back next Monday when the "violation" would be processed and then pay whatever was outstanding (which is 50 cents). I would have been so upset if i had to pay a $100 fine because i failed to pay 50 cents, haha. Also, i really love driving on the highways. My MPG goes up so much. At the moment my car gets about 15.5 MPG in the city, mostly because i drive her pretty hard, but it went up to 16.2 MPG in just one trip to Orlando and back. It's awesome :D Exams went down pretty well. Got two more on Wednesday, and then i'll be done for a while. Excited to get this out of the way, finish my course, and start my life.

Looks like a really fun quest. Wish i could do it, but sadly being a Rune Pure means missing out on a lot of stuff =[

I guess that's a lot more fair then. In MW2 i don't have as much trouble hearing them, even without a headset. But im MW3 it's crazy. The explosions just take over everything and it's so hard to hear the footsteps. Thanks though.

I recently invested in a pair of TB x32's. I kind of bought it for my xBox, but i started playing PC games a lot more now, so i also use it for when i play CoD on PC. They're pretty cool, as i find they make things sound a lot less noisy. But my big problem is that i still get a lot of deaths from behind and it's really annoying. I watch videos on YT and the way the people talk makes it seem like they can hear other players from across the map, but i cant even hear the guy running up right behind me. I was wondering if any of you might be able to help me out with some setting or something that might improve things for me?

Steam - Cherokee. Hoping to actually find people to play some MW2/MW3 with. It's getting a bit boring playing solo all the time.