Estonian dude

It's annoying that not reading the relationship thread means missing out on most of the entertaining things in OT. 2 perfect posts in a row. What could I add? I have a really sucky cold, got me nose hurt and totally red from it. Painful to sneeze. And yes, the relationship thread is the epitome of what is OT. It is practically the reason why I get on TIF actually. And that last fact annoys the hell out of me... I wish I didn't have such problems. Or that I wouldn't rely on TIF that much, rather consult with real people that know me and my situation better...

One thing they would say is that there is no friendzone ;)

Jason is a newbie. Can not play RS.

I didn't say she was the only one I have talked with. I chat daily with 2-3 girls at least :D . But she is the only one that I constantly chat with. With others I randomly shuffle to whomever I feel like talking with and who is online. And thus that is why I think she hasn't gotten the point... And that social hierarchy shit was only here to talk that I have somehow managed to start oozing confidence for the outsiders, while I am still really unsure about myself inside. Such huge changes, from being the shittiest little bastard in one school to becoming The Dude can happen, I am saying this as an inspiration to people worse off than me. And I don't think that would really hurt me, if she said that. Gives all the more reason to try ;) . But yeah, I think I have missed this train and I've gotta seek for a new girl...

No dates for me in a while... Caught a terrible cold and not wanting to give it over to someone else... BUT, on a different topic, my situation in the social hierarchy in my school has improved by SHITLOADS since September. New freshmen that joined our college are really finding me as The Dude around here. I can now get along with anybody and everybody. I could walk up to the hottest chick in school and she wouldn't mind. I go to a party and people know my name without me ever remembering them... What's sad about it is still the lack of my own confidence. And that friday went quite well. In the end we were 2 dudes and 2 girls, we went sleighing and had boatloads of fun, didn't take liquid confidence and I managed to be the leader of the group and crack jokes and everything. But, I did no personal progress with that girl whatsoever... I don't think she even knows that I like her and now we've chatted around 1,5 months almost daily. [bleep] me. [bleep].

Aaaaaand we just bought Saints Row 3 on Steam for 10 euros on the autumn sale... -_-

I just bought me the iPad mini. It is incredibly light, I have to say. The weight is the main reason why I bought it over a Nexus 7 or any other Android tab. Or the Retina iPad, for that matter. I still can't write any long-term evaluation, since I've only had it for half a day by now, but I will comment on it soon enough.

Today, I got me an iPad mini, just 2 days after it arrived in my country. Got to say, I truly am amazed by it's weight and I am amazed at how freaking old-fashioned iOS seems now that I've used a Jelly Bean Galaxy Nexus for half a year... Oh, and I too have had suicidal thoughts. And I was bullied for 7-8 years, to the place that my class teacher summoned a parents' meeting just to discuss the issue of others bullying me.

I had iron deficiency. A really rough one actually. But you can't really feel anything other than tireness and lack of stamina. I just woke up, at 5 PM, in my bed, after me parents said I arrived home at 7 AM. I can remember going to me best mates birthday and then barcrawl, but nothing after that. Damn, didn't even remember to do a drunk post here...

Oh god, don't get me started on swag... One of my classmates started using it. And he is using it in every second sentence. And he is practically the last person on earth to use this word (former nerd, started drinking last year, after becoming 17, terribly late around here, been quite a loser). He is 18 atm and I can't really tolerate that guy anymore.

[bleep]. I've caught a cold. And I still can't kiss that girl for the very first time. FML. PS: Still going to meet her, but yeah, that one thing really sucks. I am not giving her my cold...

I am always doing something right, yet it hasn't really happened yet. And now I am relieved, other people will be coming too. But I am also freaked out aswell, since now we have no private time... Well, I should get a half an hour window with her, we'll see tomorrow.

God damn, forecast promised 30 cm's or practically a whole foot of snow here over the night... And that 1.2 mile driveway... I am taking the train, even though it means walking 1.6 miles :D

Damn, managed to stumble myself on a date... Sober. Tomorrow. For a looong time (3 hours). And I am [bleep]ing nervous now.

I'm going sleighing tomorrow with girls ;) And on a different note, saved 2 nights for different girls again from total depression to happiness :D God I'm good.

That 1/10th of a mile ain't anything. 1.2 miles, now that's something. And I am afraid that's how long way we have to shovel in tomorrow... Our driveway as such is only about 200 metres, but our driveway ends on a small random way that gets cleaned on wtf times with wtf frequency. That 1.2 miles has happened numerous times for us each winter. And now it has been snowing for a day and will snow all night long aswell and so far it hasn't been cleaned...

You sure are a pair, fellas. Now to get me some spirits and beer and to end up in a bath. Like my friend did last weekend :D

Tyler, I had these moments all the time when I was younger. I used to see the moments in my dreams. Even happens every few months nowadays.

But at least for me comes the problem of not daring to even try without. I can't even approach pretty girls in real life for a chat, when sober. Even when I am approached, I get anxious and nervous. And there is no freaking enjoyment in it. I suppose I am an alcoholic... Only way I can quite freely chat with someone is through the internet, through messenger, without direct contact... And getting to my current phase of daring even then took me a year of chatting with girls that I had known for a loooooong time. And even now I am not daring to really flirt online either. Alcohol even doesn't make me feel really comfortable, unless I am in a stand, where I can't remember any details anymore... My mind puts such [bleep]ing blockades on me way.

I started seriously studying for my test today... I have failed twice, now I am not gonna let it be the third time aswell. Funny thing is, I would've passed the national exam easily a on my first time, but drivers' school exam has three times the questions and you can make less total errors...

I really am a shy person, when sober, especially when chatting in real life. Well, I've gotten a lot braver in the last years, but there is still a long way to go for me feeling comfortable flirting with girls face to face when sober.

Noob. EOC sucks, until I have played it. Which I haven't. <3

I didn't know what are shin splints or what is the thing that I am having, but now after reading about it, I realized I've had them too. They occur whenever I start dunking and mostly on my left foot, since it takes most of the shock. Last year and the year before it, I had to take some weeks off practices because of the shin splints. And now I have them again, after just 2 months of practices after over 3 months of rest...

Today, I made life a lot prettier for at least 2 pretty girls. Yes, I play off my chances with them, but still. I like making people happy. And all it took was some conversation and support, even if it was only through messenger without actually seeing each other :) And I seriously am the one of the nicest guys around my school. Like seriously, I learned some personal dramas today, through making those people happier. Just hearing out and presenting some counterarguments to why life is [bleep]ed for these 2 girls precisely was enough. I literally saved one girl from crying to sleep. God, I feel good...

Now, I spoke with that other girl that approached me on Saturday. And I realized, I could've just taken her... She regretted that kiss with that random dude and asked me not to tell about it to anyone. And we chatted on for 4 more hours today :D . But yes, it seems that I friendzone girls, rather than the other way around...