I know people say revenge isn't sweet, but right now I feel like it is. I got revenge on two people I have been harbouring anger against for about a year and a half and now that I know I probably won't ever see them again, I did attack them and I might be a bad person for it but I have had three friends kill themselves over being too fat or too skinny and it's sent me into a meltdown over people who go too far when insulting people especially based on weight and yes, I called people out (my boyfriend's best friends who insulted me for similar reasons) but I did also just talk about awareness of mental health and that you can have your own views on stuff of course but be a bit more considerate because you don't know what someone is going through. just because someone is laughing and smiling with you doesn't mean they're happy inside and depression affects a lot of people
and yes i was bloody personal with insults and i might look bad but i don't actually care how i look. the desired effect has happened, they want to apologise to me but most of all they feel embarrassed and shocked that they've thought they got away with it and that they were never going to be confronted or shamed
i got them when they least expected it. they thought the rage in me had cooled down when i just put a lid on it until the time was right and i'm bloody gleeful right now. yes my boyfriend is like scared of drama but there is no drama here, i have just sealed my fate with people i never liked in the first place, i've just made it clear that we will never be friends and i think that that has done us all a world of good because now nobody is being fake here and we can just truly move on with our lives without any pretences. i guess it kinda is the making of the new me in a way. i won't take stuff lying down anymore, i'm not hot-headed but i've had 20 years of being trodden on by various people and i just say whatever karma etc but now, i'm speaking up. people keep their emotions inside and get snowed under and i dont want to be one of those people.
in other news kinda mad i'm being milked for all my money. paying for my flight and insurance, residence costs and travel from the airport to the uni has drained me. and now they want me to buy a bus pass and student card, duvet and other bed linens and cutlery/pots and pans and plates but i've teamed up with my room mate and she seems nice so i think we might just buy the stuff together from walmart or something (ahhh im going canada omg) never been to a walmart before i'm so exciteddddd