I feel like going in a hole and just like. going to sleep forever.

 

 

 

I really suck at understanding life.

 

it doesn't make any [bleep] sense.

 

everything that happens just goes by, I don't pay any attention to it, I don't accomplish anything, It just happens and I don't understand any of what happens to me and whats going on around me. sometimes I do, but I always end up feeling like this again. its not very fun.

 

It makes me feel kind of, hm. helpless? maybe.

 

):

 

 

 

Poor deathdrow. Come on, group hug.

 

I'll get in on this, group hug.

 

Group hug.

Spent the past few days in San Francisco. :D I'll post a few pictures when I get home tomorrow, maybe. Chinatown was so awesome. Lots of cheap stuff. Two teas and this hotdog pastry thing for $1.30! Heh. I've been Internet-deprived for the past 3 days. Scary stuff.

I feel like going in a hole and just like. going to sleep forever.

 

 

 

I really suck at understanding life.

 

it doesn't make any [bleep] sense.

 

everything that happens just goes by, I don't pay any attention to it, I don't accomplish anything, It just happens and I don't understand any of what happens to me and whats going on around me. sometimes I do, but I always end up feeling like this again. its not very fun.

 

It makes me feel kind of, hm. helpless? maybe.

 

):

 

 

 

Poor deathdrow. Come on, group hug.

 

I'll get in on this, group hug.

 

Group hug.

 

Group love.

I really should just go fall in a [bleep]ing hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep]ing point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep]ing care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep]ing pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

I feel like going in a hole and just like. going to sleep forever.

 

 

 

I really suck at understanding life.

 

it doesn't make any [bleep] sense.

 

everything that happens just goes by, I don't pay any attention to it, I don't accomplish anything, It just happens and I don't understand any of what happens to me and whats going on around me. sometimes I do, but I always end up feeling like this again. its not very fun.

 

It makes me feel kind of, hm. helpless? maybe.

 

):

 

 

 

Dang dude! Are you depressed? I'm here for you if you need to talk... you helped me.

I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

Ya, being a teenager can suck sometimes. Don't worry man, once you're an adult you won't have all those hormones flying through your body and then you're going to be like "Man, I'm F**KING AWESOME!"

 

 

 

Stupid hormones.

I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

You remind me of what I'm like when I'm going to get my period. : D

 

 

 

all jokes aside, what actually happened?

 

 

 

oh and i accidentally just dropped my oreo into my glass of milk. FML.

I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

I want some milk... Probably going to give me some weird dreams tonight, though.

 

 

 

EDIT:

 

I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

And it's extremely obvious.

I want some milk... Probably going to give me some weird dreams tonight, though.

 

 

 

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I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

And it's extremely obvious.

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You mean him having clinical depression? Well doesn't everyone feel like that often....? Because I know I do and I don't think I'm depressed?

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

 

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

 

 

I'm depressed. I have often felt that way. Trust me, he's depressed.

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I want some milk... Probably going to give me some weird dreams tonight, though.

 

 

 

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I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

And it's extremely obvious.

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You mean him having clinical depression? Well doesn't everyone feel like that often....? Because I know I do and I don't think I'm depressed?

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Depression in the most general sense of the word.

Woke up... Had a [bleep]y [wagon] substitute. Came home, sat on the computer for 3 hours. Went to soccer practice, and my dad picked up my Sigma 70-300mm macro lens for $100. Snacking on chips atm, and talking on msn.

 

 

 

Not a bad day. :)

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I want some milk... Probably going to give me some weird dreams tonight, though.

 

 

 

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I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

And it's extremely obvious.

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You mean him having clinical depression? Well doesn't everyone feel like that often....? Because I know I do and I don't think I'm depressed?

[/hide]

 

Depression in the most general sense of the word.

 

 

 

It's not uncommon. This is what I personally suffer from; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysthemia

 

It's not fun =/

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I want some milk... Probably going to give me some weird dreams tonight, though.

 

 

 

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I really should just go fall in a [bleep] hole, and hopefully get forgotten.

 

that way I won't be a burden on anyone anymore, and I won't be around to throw misery into peoples lives. I really should just go do something productive with my life. but I don't see the [bleep] point of it. I wish that the five or six people that actually care about me could just stop. I don't understand why they do anyways.

 

I really don't [bleep] care about anything anymore.

 

things happen that should make me feel even worse. but I'm too much of a [bleep] to care about whats happening to the people around me. I really should just go hide under my bed, and hope nobody finds me.

 

I'm so [bleep] pathetic. all I ever do is say things to attempt to get people to say things to make me feel better. all I ever do is take out the [cabbage] I'm feeling inside on the people I care about. I really have got to stop. all it does is hurt the few people I care about.

 

 

 

I want to sleep. but I have homework.

 

 

 

Yeah you're depressed. You should see a doctor, maybe they can get you on something that makes you feel better.

 

You can't diagnose him like that... you're not a doctor.. but anyways, I think he's already diagnosed with clinical depression so he's already been there and done that.

 

And it's extremely obvious.

 

You mean him having clinical depression? Well doesn't everyone feel like that often....? Because I know I do and I don't think I'm depressed?

[/hide]

 

Depression in the most general sense of the word.

 

It's not uncommon. This is what I personally suffer from; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysthemia

 

It's not fun =/

 

So pretty much.. mood swings?

 

Depression in the most general sense of the word.

 

It's not uncommon. This is what I personally suffer from; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysthemia

 

It's not fun =/

 

So pretty much.. mood swings?

 

 

 

Not so much mood swings as I occasionally swing to a happy mood. :|

 

Edit: Well, no. In all honesty.. I know that I've gotten over a good bit of it when I moved back here from houston. n_n

 

Just try to find something you can enjoy man, get a job, hell I got two full time jobs. I'm not saying its gonna take all that, but just try to distract yourself is the main thing.

Don't self-diagnose for crying out loud :wall: Btw most people who try to self-diagnose do so because they've been told all or most of their life that there was something wrong with them. For example being called fat, other names and other negative comments. It's a learned behaviour that many take aboard instead of coming to terms that they're completely normal and what people said and did was wrong.

 

 

 

Btw in my new house today WOOOOO!!!! :thumbsup: didn't sleep last night -.-

Don't self-diagnose for crying out loud :wall: Btw most people who try to self-diagnose do so because they've been told all or most of their life that there was something wrong with them. For example being called fat, other names and other negative comments.

 

 

 

Btw in my new house today WOOOOO!!!! :thumbsup: didn't sleep last night -.-

 

 

 

Lol it wasnt just me who did. It was my psychiatrist and my therapist.

 

 

 

And awh.

Feeling guilty? :P

Congratulations on your house. :thumbsup:

Feeling guilty? :P

 

Lol no, that awh was aimed at how you didn't sleep. What would I have to feel guilty about?

haha just how you assumed I was talking to you, I was only joking btw it's all good. OMG I LOVE THIS HOUSE!!! :thumbsup:

 

 

 

Btw thanks for the music Killer they were awesome, that's the kind of music I like. Did you get to check out Psyro?

haha just how you assumed I was talking to you, I was only joking btw it's all good. OMG I LOVE THIS HOUSE!!! :thumbsup:

 

 

 

Btw thanks for the music Killer they were awesome, that's the kind of music I like. Did you get to check out Psyro?

 

 

 

Haha ah. And nice lol, I'm gonna be getting my own appt. pretty soon actually. n_n It's gonna be $711 for a 3 bed, so its not a bad deal at all.

 

So what's Psyro?

haha just how you assumed I was talking to you, I was only joking btw it's all good. OMG I LOVE THIS HOUSE!!! :thumbsup:

 

 

 

Btw thanks for the music Killer they were awesome, that's the kind of music I like. Did you get to check out Psyro?

 

 

 

Haha ah. And nice lol, I'm gonna be getting my own appt. pretty soon actually. n_n It's gonna be $711 for a 3 bed, so its not a bad deal at all.

 

So what's Psyro?

 

 

 

Music group.

 

http://www.myspace.com/nirpsyro