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I'm going to say it... What the hell is wrong with your school? If a 4 is worth as much as a 1, why the hell even bother with anything higher than a 4? It's that way in any school in austria and i guess it's the same in other countries to. Why even bother? Idk. Bragging rights? Parents and teachers would prefer you to have a 1 over a 4. To many people their grades matter for some odd reason.

triple post :oops: how embarrassing! (firefox acted wierd, now i opened the forum in IE, seems to work better.)

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lol! asks the guy with the funny colours in his sig :P I study philosophy on the university of vienna. At least i ake it look like i'd do :

I would have sold my red mask in early october and bought it back after halloween. I "knew" it would drop, like it does every year (at least it did 2005), but i was quitting membership and wasn't interested that much in rs at the time anyway. Compared to the rl mistakes.... :(

How is it called? the link doesn't work for me.

I completely agree wit BlueLancers point. All those grades are just important if you want to fit in and get a classic job. If you got plans on your own grades and degrees are completely irrelevant. It should be clear that education and grades are two different things and having good grades doesn't neccessarily mean that you are better educated. Although the probability that you have a good education (for somebody who wants to judge you based on your grades) is higher the better grades and the higher degree you got. So i'd say education is much more important then grades. Education broadens your hirizon. Grades just show others how well you did what others expected you to do. Despite that education isn't everything. There are many more factors that are as or probably even more important on determining how successful you'll be. Anyway here are my grades :P : Introduction to Philosophy - 3 Introduction to Epistomology - 4 Introduction to Logics - 1 Anthropologic Philosophy - 1 History of Philosophy 3 - 5 History of Philosophy 4 - 5 Problems of Globalisation - 2 Introduction to Chinese Thinking 1 - 2 Introduction to Chinese Thinking 2 - 2 Wheras 1-4 are positive and 5 is negative. It doesn't matter at all if you got a 1 or a 4.

PIZZA!! pasta, almost anything made out of potatoes, like uhm.. french fries, pancakes or palats[racist term]en (austrian version of cr̮̻̉̉pe), ice cream, watermelon yummy, pineapple, bread (I'm talking about dark bread), Semmeln with butter and marmelade, glazed donuts! (I love america for that, when i visited the us 10 years ago i ate them per dozends :D) and to drink fresh squeezed fruit juice, or a sweet, creamy cocktail (with fresh squeezed fruit juice)

I don't know if there is something wrong with the german version, but why does it ask if it has a spine after i sayed it is out of plastic? Later he guesses i was thinking of "enjoyements". Are enjoyements out of plastic? I'll try the english version.

Ghost- hotheaded Daan- organized Bubsa- toony Viktor- unintuitive Issy- romantic

Was it called "body worlds"? I can't remember anymore. I went to such an exhibit with my class though - years ago. There was a huge hype back then. Moral questions never occured to me though. Wierd was, that everything was so clean. It looked more like art then like actual bodies to me.

okay.. time to confess all my sins :P When i was very young i cut of big parts of the bark from some kind of tree. He is still a live, but never fully recovered. When i was about the same age, i was in a shoe store, where they had a giant teddybear (about twice my size back then) for kids to play with. When some other kid climbed up on him too, i grabbed his belt when he turned to get down. He fell and cried (, wich was my intention). Nobody noticed i was responsible. In the early middle school we (how do you call it when kids wrestle for fun?) a lot. There was a guy, rather small (i wasn't among the tall kids either) who was uhm.. very energic and won a lot, both against me and my best friend at that time, whom i knew from elementary school. Since the first time i defeated him (in an epic battle :P) he remained below us in the pecking order and we used to dump hin into the trash can during breaks. Once i even kicked him in the [wagon] very hard, while he was looking out the window. He belonged to the "gang" and was one of our closest friends, but he also was the one i would take my anger out on. Hope i/we didn't disturb his development :? When i was 13 during a sponge fight i pushed a friend who fell and hit his head on the radiator, resulting in two cuts that had to be sewn. I didn't mean to make him even fall though. hm.. during a time i repeatively withdrew a couple thousand schillings from the bank automate using my parents card to buy weed. (10 Schillings ~ 1$). Also took some gold coins my parents stored in the safe and sold them. I made some girls cry. Never intentional though. Guess that's not enough to send me to hell :P

I thought about it, but i was dissapointed by the few psychologists and psychatrists i encountered in my life. It appeared they didn't know anymore about the human psyche, mind and soul then i do. Also i have a feeling that i'm getting somewhere, that i'm not in stagnation. I just dropped in a deep, deep hole with drugs and schizophrenia and all. i'm still not were i want to be and it's a painful process, but since i could shed off the schizoprenia and the drugs on my own i'm quite positive i can go the rest of my way without help to (assuming that the help a therapist could offer is what i'd need). I guess friendly relation to other people, like to friends would be more beneficial then to a proffessional as a therapist definitely is anyway. I can produced detached thoughts on my own. I never was that much a travel fan, but recently i thought it might be good. Although i feel i have to get a little grip first. That's a good one. Although i don't really care if i'd effect the world in a positive or negative way (postive and negative is very relative anyway). I juat NEED to be myself and learn to express myself. Somebody i know always says: "You need to let it all out." and he soo right about that. It's just a painful, tiresome process. Sometimes i have a feeling there is a river inside me, that is hindered by a dam from flowing freely and i have to build up pressure so that the water will eventually bursts the dam, so that the river can flow freely (again?). Or maybe the dam is there for a reason and pressure should be released periodically. idk.

You are definitely right about that one. Do you just know or did you smoke yourself? It's just easier said then done. After 10 years of smoking at least a box a day it became quite a habit. I'm quite sure eventually i'll drop them, problem is this compound structure of all the trouble. If i were completely happy and well balanced quitting smoking would probably be easy. I know from everytime i tried to quit (never managed more then two days without) how my body feels much better suprisingly fast (after supressing the "reflex" of lighting a cigarette for a couple of hours). I even tried those silly nicotine plasters. They have a quite heavy effect, but won't do anything about the urge to just light a cigarette. It appears it's more the habit of smoking (and the emotions attached to it) then the nicotine, since it's no problem at all to sit at a lecture for two hours or in a cinema. Recently i visited one of the remaining friends i see. He didn't want anybody to smoke at his place anymore, so i sat there for hours without smoking. If suddenly all the cigarettes in the world would desintegrate, it wouldn't be terrible at all i guess. Probably i would find another way to channel my self destructive tendencies though. Going out never really was my thing. I know lots of people because i attended several schools. Somehow they disappeared from my world though. It's not that i wouldn't consider them friends anymore, it's just they do their things and i hardly do anything. I'm sure if i did something people would start to appear again. I just can't call people and meet them to hang out or something, because hanging out is somehow purposeless imo, some of my friends seem to think the same and those who don't i have outgrown it seems. (Please correct me if something i say sounds stupid. You might see things in a way i never thought of, by looking from a point of view, that's to alien for me to take atm.) At least all we did, when we hang out, was smoking weed, drinking or something. Well probably i just have grown in a different direction then some of my friends and it has nothing to do with hanging out. I'm glad you didn't just say "get a gf", but instead described what i am looking for. I hope i have mature to a point where i won't smother growing relationships by trying to fullfill silly expectations nobody ever had and at the same time rushing and forcing thinks alÃÆÃâÃâá (didn't say that lines but meant it that way) "please, please love me! i'm soo desperate, i can't be alone anymore". Surest way to drive any girl away really fast, even if she would have been interested in you in the first place, especially those "alpha girls" (those who will be together with whoever is the biggest dog in the pack) i'm seemingly attracted to. I'm not quite where this "alpha" mentallity comes from though. Maybe i hang with the wrong people and got this mentality spoonfed (maybe even from my parents/mother). Maybe people just are that way, but maybe i developed this beastly mentality by myself. Anyway i do belive that most woman is attracted to strong men, maybe more whole, balanced men. Then again maybe i just want to be strong, whole and balanced and won't accept being loved before i am that way. I'll go a little further: Maybe i want to be loved for being strong and such, so as long as i ain't that way i don't want to be loved at all. Maybe you could say a partner could support me becoming what i want to be, but i don't know if i even want more then the minimal financial support my parents and the government provide. Maybe that's incredible stupid [cabbage] i'm talking here, but maybe i'm dead serious about it. Why is everything soo mind boggling? I think i prefer forum communication over this chat ish online conversation. That way i can forumulate my thoughts more clearly. I always feel i alienate people when i give not so monosyllabic responses to simple statements. I could understand that since i guess most people just want to do some conversation instead going deep, deep, because often i wished i'd be able to express myself more light hearted and not so complicate. Part of the idea in creating this thread was to just say: "oh well, i don't care if i alienate people by posting my thoughts as they come instead of abbreviating them." (wich i do most of the time in order to fit into what appears to me is usus.) So far i do enjoy this. Often i have a wierd feeling of diving deeper and deeper into my mind until i'm somewhere where i can find no other people anymore, where it gets harder and harder to communicate my thoughts, because they incresae in complexity with every meter i dive. I wonder if there ever is a bottom to this ocean. It's not that these thoughts are depressing per se, it's just that sometimes they become really alien, inhuman and unpersonal. I have trouble relating this landscape of thoughts (don't think that these thoughts are fast. they once were and it was maddening. quite in the contrary they slow down, and the more they slow down the more "aware" i feel... aaanyyway...) to the thoughts i'm perceiving to form day to day live. This fast pace i encounter whenever i step out of the door seems so utterly pointless. Don't get me wrong, i do understand the meaning of work and other banal things. I just wonder why everybody gets so involved at all. Altough in turn i'm quite sure i do understand why they do that, but i always feel it's quite arrogant to believe i know better and ignorant to think i know better, when i don't feel better. Aannywaay.. Thank you for your lines. I do appreciate them very much.

dammit. pressed quote instead of edit again :anxious:

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hm.. i have also seen the 2nd and 3rd part of the triology again recently and i do give Peter Jackson credit for realizing this mammoth project. The result is epic, but i dislike something about his style. Recently i have seen King Kong and there was it again. Maybe i shouldn't have watched "Bad Taste", because now i see Bad Taste in all of his movies. I always see this disguting splatterish flavour in his movies.

OMG this is bad! Just watched Bohemia Rhapsody, then Beat it, then this and then tonigh, tonight. This truly stands out in the comparsion.

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lol! Guess i am one: I have seen the first part and i defintely don't want to see anymore. my advice: If you easily get disturbed by gruesome movies, DON't WATCH ANY OF THE SAW MOVIES easily one of the most disturbing movies i have ever seen (well "baise moi! or however you spell it was disturbing to, but in a completely different way.) I have to admit i easily get nightmares from about any horror movie but this one is heavy (at least the first part was). Well maybe i'll watch the other parts one day, but definitely not alone at night in my house in this industrial sprawl. "shudders"

Well this topic might have been locked a couple of times, but since i discovered that song through a post in here and i LOVED it (i watched it dozends of time by now) i gladly bring this up again.

Let's see.. last movies i watched were: The lost city - Plays in the time of the revolution in Cuba, but is focused around a night club owner (Andy Garcia, who is also the director) and his family. Sad and a little boring imo, but not "bad" at all. Pretty emotional. Dune - Well i watched this one again. Guess i don't have to say much about it. I love the story, maybe i'll go and read the books finally. Supergirl (1984) - Not exactly a great movie, but what's interesting about it is the mood and setting, because it reflects the time the movie was made in. It probably wasn't ment to be that way, but i found the whole piece quite surreal.

I would go to a store and play around with the models they have there. I'm sure you'll find one you feel comfortable with. If it has to be the one in your post then it's mabye possible to find somebody who sells one somewhere on the interent.

If it isn't math or a language i grab the book and read it from the first to the last page. I dropped out of school and made my high school "degree" (is it that how you call it?) by learning that way. Now on university i do it the same way. I don't attend lectures. Just read the books or scripts. Usually i learn for hours in a row.