When I think deeply (I try not to), I get scared usually. I think about what my future might shape out to be. On an optimistic day I'm working at Jagex as a developer then coming home to a hoarde of 'OMG TELL UZ NU CONTENT STOOPID JMOD' PMs from people here. I have a nice house, I'm confident and I don't worry about money.

 

 

 

But most of the time I imagine that I crack under the pressure of society. I wonder if I'll ever stop being a child. I see my future as being tough. I won't get a job anywhere because I'm too terrified of the real world, I become a disappointment to my grandparents.

 

 

 

I often worry for my sanity too. I really think I've become dependant on my best internet friend, Shannon. There is nobody else I'm any closer to.

 

 

 

So that's what happens when I think deeply. See why I try not to? -.- I don't think of things like death, it's just an inevitability. I just worry and worry about the future.

Random thing,death,something i just want to think about,how im going to beat X level,what i am going to do tomorrow

 

and of course

 

sex :ugeek:

 

 

 

Yeah, that last thing takes up about half the space in my think-tank. The universe just has to wait.

Well for me it's usually;

 

My penpal

 

Friends

 

Other friends

 

Stuff that happened today

 

My penpal

 

Stuff that happened other days

 

Life

 

Stuff

 

 

 

I generally try not to think too much into many of them topics (especially the one about my penpal.)

Well this is getting interesting \ keep it up!

 

 

 

Bump :ugeek:

oh, i forgot about death, quite a fun one to think about. I often play through different scenarios of ways I would die and what would happen afterwards, what people would think, and others. I think from everything from a car accident to cancer to suicide. I've spent countless hours on this.

Just thought I'd post this after a really weird dream.

 

 

 

I imagine making up crazy conspiracy theories why people do certain things around me. [Avoid, talk to, insult, compliment etc...] and then find ways to make them plausible.

 

 

 

Or imagine getting into arguments and then destroying them with my brain.

 

 

 

Or, if it's people I don't like - I'm usually minding my own business - they take a dig at me. I look for a fight and they lose. [Graphic]

 

 

 

Which reminds me of my dream. Anyway, I was this reseacher investing an archaeological remain at a private school [down the road from the school I use to go to] and I believe Michael Cane in his butler-Alfred way was my assistant. So, I ask if I could look on the site and this white guy take me by surprise and body slams me. Then getting really mad while Mr. Caine is cheering I unleash my awesome fighting prowess.

 

 

 

PM me for details. One of the most satisfying dry dreams in a loooong time.

 

 

 

Also, the dude I smashed up beared a resemblance to another dude that I hate. :mrgreen:

 

 

 

I felt bored, so I typed this up. Don't hate on me.

How to turn what I see into a film. Especially if I'm listening to music, I can create whole scenes very vividly. In fact, a lot of the time my whole thought process takes form from cinematic points of view.

 

 

 

It might be a problem. People look at me wierd when I start moving around (or telling them to) to look for good natural light.

Usually emotions, memories, thinking of scenarios around my surroundings to what might happen. Hard to explain, its like being paranoid but without being paranoid, and sex. cut me some slack, I'm a 18yo boy who is rarely pleased. :(

How to turn what I see into a film. Especially if I'm listening to music, I can create whole scenes very vividly. In fact, a lot of the time my whole thought process takes form from cinematic points of view.

 

 

 

It might be a problem. People look at me wierd when I start moving around (or telling them to) to look for good natural light.

 

 

 

You do that when you're listening to music too? O_o

How to turn what I see into a film. Especially if I'm listening to music, I can create whole scenes very vividly. In fact, a lot of the time my whole thought process takes form from cinematic points of view.

 

 

 

It might be a problem. People look at me wierd when I start moving around (or telling them to) to look for good natural light.

 

 

 

You do that when you're listening to music too? O_o

 

Three's a crowd! :thumbsup:

I was listening to 'For the Girl' by The Fratellis on the drive home today, and I made a neat 20's speakeasy-type scene after looking at the album art. Very fun. The words go great if you imagine everyone going around enjoying a party. Whole album is like that.

 

 

 

And am I the only one that doesn't think of sex that much? I do when I feel like it, but having your mind controlled by it will certainly leave you disappointed in a few years.

I find it rather amusing that I explore why I remember certain things from my childhood and figure out why certain memories are kept even though they have no apparent meaning. Then I think about why I remember things and realize how they were important psychologically; I'd make a great therapist if I could bear to care about people :lol:

 

 

 

I get into philosophical arguments with my self also; along with preparing arguments against christianity and atheism to mess with people during school.

My deep thoughts usually consist of lions and heart shaped necklaces dancing on the ocean front.

 

kidding. :)

 

Usually i think about my girl, and school. I suck at school. :(

Lots of things really.

 

Quite a lot of big changes happened in the past year and i've been thinking recently about the future and how much friends and people i care for have changed and stuff like that. Seems like yesterday we were all joking about at primary school and now people are all working/ at Uni and going their seperate ways, all seems to be moving pretty fast.

 

 

 

And all the random crap, like what it'd be like if i could go back to being a toddler but retaining all my knowledge. Or what i'd spend my money on if i went back in time and picked the winning EuroMillions numbers.

Usually girls or food. Makes me very hungry. #-o

 

 

 

You.

 

 

 

 

 

Yes, you.

 

 

You are dead!

Usually think about my future house or something. Yeah, I'm wierd.

My fate, and why I chose certain decisions in my life, and how it affects me.

 

Pretty deep stuff I think about.

What I'd do with the universe if I was an all powerful 'god'

 

What I am going to do the next day

 

What I did in the past

 

My plans for the future

 

Epic Things (LOL, like epic stories and stuff and just ideas floating around through my head, like a random badass weapon I invent and create a battle scene with it)

 

Yeah I think a LOT, about a lot of things. I sometimes daydream in class if the discussion is really boring and I'm not interested in it at all/don't think it will be useful.

I wonder what it would be like to have the perception/consciousness of an animal. But recently, I can't stop thinking about my cheating ex girlfriend. Get over it I know, I'm trying, but some stuff just hits you too deep.

I usually think about the future or if I could go back to a certain time and do things that I wish I'd had done, or to undo things I have done, or I think about time travel and all that jazz.

And am I the only one that doesn't think of sex that much? I do when I feel like it, but having your mind controlled by it will certainly leave you disappointed in a few years.

 

 

 

Yeah, and then you have to go AFK to clean your pants ...

I usually think about:

 

Friends

 

Relationships/women

 

Family

 

Better ways to spend my time

 

Things I don't like about my life and how I intend to change them

 

 

 

But at times when i've been lonely/deep in thought i've worried about:

 

My future

 

What makes people like me?

 

Where do I want to end up/what should my ambition be? and why have I not been chasing it sooner?

 

I often beat myself up (not literally) for spending so much time online over the past few years when I could have been doing much more rewarding and productive things (my personal opinion and is aimed at myself and no-one else).

 

 

 

But all in all I tend to follow my motto of positive thinking leads to progression.

 

(and for the record my life has been far from perfect, i'm currently unemployed after graduating, had a mother and brother who both were manic depressants and alcoholics, i'm from a split family, Dad left when I was 3, I moved 250 miles away from friends and family for the sake of my mothers health. I just choose to be a positive person, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I learn from my experiences and they make me a stronger person.)

I spend quite a bit of time thinking about writing, and about religion and philosophy.

How the USA would be if we all shared the same religion and culture

Idiotic mistakes I've made, whether it is a social faux pas, test mess ups, or just plain forgetfulness.

 

 

 

Most recently its included the fact that I messed up the grammar in my signature. :oops: