I vote that he's(Muggiw's friend) just more comfortable in an environment that doesn't challenge him

I'm just not going to bother anymore. I'll go to the gym for myself like I have been.

 

But my self-hatred is never going away, and neither is this massive pit of emptiness in my chest. Three years of therapy and med management and they're still there.

 

How can I believe I'm better than everyone else but still hate myself? It doesn't make sense.

It's not really supposed to make sense, human emotion is basically the opposite of logical

On the topic of mistaken sexual preferences, about a dozen people (over 6 years) have asked if I am gay solely based on the fact my ears are pierced

I used to get asked every so often because I was quiet and non-assertive in my speech

Bloody hell, things are like always for Estonians, can't get things going in the start and can't stop afterwards.

I'm kinda/sorta dating one girl, in another town another girl promised to get me drunk and do all sorts of... interesting things to me and now 2 more old acquaintances have expressed direct interest in going out for a date. And that bloody Tinder keeps on giving aswell...

 

And I am so [bleep]ing busy right now with the funeral n stuff...

When it rains, it pours

Aaand I got friendzoned by one I already hooked up with, cause apparently I cannot make any rational decisions and can hurt us both very badly right now if I pursue something in my situation... I kinda get the point.

You're allowed to be less vague. We're all friends here :)

I shouldn't be chasing tail when I haven't even buried my mum yet. Is what I meant.

I mean, that's certainly valid but it's difficult to put your entire life on hold for weeks while you get jerked around by the government as well

Well, not weeks, days.

But yeah, I've lost grandma, who I was real close to, and mom, who was even closer, within 3 months. And they were the last two people qho played a really big role in my life, so pretty much noone left. I don't think I even fathom it until a few more months in.

 

I mean, this board is probs my last surviving family member, only place to vent.

well, we'll certainly be here for you. I know I will, at least

I would reach out to friends and family. You probably have more friends than you know.

I went to Jacks Tap tonight and met a cute guy, he was really flirty, and we danced and made out and stuff, lol. Was fun would do it again.

 

I attribute it to my beard. LOL.

Beards rule.

Bloody [bleep]ing hell.

 

That one girl.

The one I've had oneitis for for years.

The one who studies abroad in Korea and is a former model.

She is back in the country for winter holidays. She hasn't hit me up, but I know she is here, from here instagram posts and FB attends.

And that thought that she is here simultaneously arouses and annoys and intrigues me.

 

Last contact we had was last summer. Last time I saw her was 2 years ago.

 

Why, oh why does it bother me when I've found so many other girls to be intrigued about?!?!

You should probably unfollow her on social media if it twists you up this much just to be in the same country as her

Ok pretext I'm slightly drunk, but I danced with a few girls and got a girl's number today. Unfortunately I think she's a lesbian and she thinks I'm gay.

 

Dancing was a bit awkward, I don't know how to dance with girls. I don't want to be too forward. But I saw some guys being /real/ forward so I'm confused. Going to try and get my friend 'Jane' to help me, but IDK if her boyfriend is ok with it. (I'll lie and say I'm gay, maybe that'll help? LOL just joking)

 

I'm going to text her Sunday evening / Monday asking how her weekend was, and if I don't get a response, I'll just remove her number like I do all the others.

Okay so I ended up texting her last night asking how her day was. She responded sometime later that night (I was asleep RIP)! Haha.

 

I'm thinking of responding, then asking if she has plans for the week. Depending on what she says then, I'll ask if she wants to grab coffee or dinner. How does that sound?

Okay so I ended up texting her last night asking how her day was. She responded sometime later that night (I was asleep RIP)! Haha.

 

I'm thinking of responding, then asking if she has plans for the week. Depending on what she says then, I'll ask if she wants to grab coffee or dinner. How does that sound?

Channel your inner Shia Labeouf and "Do it!"

 

Obligatory Muggi advice from a bit ago is keep that date no more than 2 days ahead if you can.

Coffee > dinner

Indeed, way more things to go wrong with dinner and it is harder to concentrate on communication.

 

I had an... interesting experience. An eye-opener in regards to what a single touch can be or do. It can communicate so much.

Always, always try to start touching at first chance. Don't rush it, don't make it awkward. But it is the key.

We've been saying that for like 10 years haha glad you caught on

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