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keystroke ""o" "f" "f" "shift" "enter" usually brings me here. Today it decided to redirect me to https://www.offtopic.com/ which is like a weird bizzarro world version of OT that increases in members regularly and doesn't mention runescape offhandedly for nostalgia. And their relationship thread is called "vaginarium". ha.


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What sacrilege is this?!?!?!? OT in my OT?!?!?

 

Been away a few days, nice to see multiple pages in the time.

Been a rough time here. So much to do and so little time...


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So I've noticed this thread's regulars all follow similar trends.

 

RPG is constantly dealing with psycho exes.

Muggi reminds us of the joys of polygamy.

Saq is totally oblivious to how much chicks dig him.

I strike out every other week.

Kalphite wages a war against the friend zone.

Randox pretty much stays rational.

Etc, etc

 

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Maddy, I know we're not super close, so maybe this won't mean much to you... but I'm damned proud of you.

 

I'm not proud of myself. I'm very upset with myself that I am in this situation when I could have left months ago.

My head is a complete mess over this and he's tried various tactics to get off lightly:

 

Tactic 1 has been making me feel more guilty than I already do, telling me it's his final year of university and how he won't know the outcome and it'll cause him stress

Tactic 2 has been telling me to tell my manager that it was a joke, or that I was too drunk to remember and that it's been sorted out

Tactic 3 has been him getting in contact with my ex boyfriend and that circle of friends to find any dirt that would make me less credible

Tactic 4 has been him telling me he loves me, that I'm amazing, that I'm caring, that he's never had a friend like me

 

Despite all of this, I'm writing my formal report and it does make me a little concerned about whether I'll get into any trouble or whether there will be any retribution.

At the end of the day, all that kept me in that horrible situation was affection and sex and it wasn't worth it for one second.

 

I still haven't been able to stop caring about him, but I have a voice note that I need to re-play so that I can be reminded that he doesn't care, doesn't think it was a big deal to hurt someone that he supposedly cared about, who wasn't posing a threat to him at all.

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Here's the thing Maddy. If he's abusive to you, chances are he'll be abusive to the next person he dates. Anything that helps break that spiral is worth doing, and you absolutely shouldn't feel guilty about it.

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Maddy, I know we're not super close, so maybe this won't mean much to you... but I'm damned proud of you.

 

I'm not proud of myself. I'm very upset with myself that I am in this situation when I could have left months ago.

 

I don't expect you to be.

 

No matter how you got into that situation, you're doing what you need to do to get out now.

That's incredible! Nobody gets to tell you it isn't.

 

My head is a complete mess over this and he's tried various tactics to get off lightly:

Tactic 1 has been making me feel more guilty than I already do, telling me it's his final year of university and how he won't know the outcome and it'll cause him stress

Tactic 2 has been telling me to tell my manager that it was a joke, or that I was too drunk to remember and that it's been sorted out

Tactic 3 has been him getting in contact with my ex boyfriend and that circle of friends to find any dirt that would make me less credible

Tactic 4 has been him telling me he loves me, that I'm amazing, that I'm caring, that he's never had a friend like me

I knew someone who had something like this printed off and hung conspicuously:

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This was so she could refer to it while talking with her (then-estranged, now-ex) husband and remind herself that what happened wasn't okay and that she didn't need to make peace with him.

Eventually she made it into a game of sorts, picking out where he was on the cycle at any given time.

 

Despite all of this, I'm writing my formal report and it does make me a little concerned about whether I'll get into any trouble or whether there will be any retribution.

That can't be easy. You have the determination to follow through; I respect and admire that.

I never had the courage to report my abusers. Most of the time, even years later, I don't have the courage to refuse go places I know they'll be. I hate that.

By filing the report you're helping anyone else he might hurt in the future.

 

At the end of the day, all that kept me in that horrible situation was affection and sex and it wasn't worth it for one second.

But now you see it for what it was. It wasn't a good experience, but it's also not your future. You've gotten out.

 

I still haven't been able to stop caring about him, but I have a voice note that I need to re-play so that I can be reminded that he doesn't care, doesn't think it was a big deal to hurt someone that he supposedly cared about, who wasn't posing a threat to him at all.

Yeah, that's a normal human response. It sucks, and I'm sure it feels like you shouldn't care, but you're not wired that way and it's okay that you aren't.
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Your investment in relationships will go down as you date more.

 

As for him he was abusive and it's not your fault and anything you do to him to get him to change is justified

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I learned a couple things:

 

1) Off-by-one errors are a [bleep]

2) NaNs are a [bleep]

 

I spent all day on two small issues stemming from off-by-one errors and an initialized matrix resulting in NaN.


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Your investment in relationships will go down as you date more.

 

As for him he was abusive and it's not your fault and anything you do to him to get him to change is justified

 

 

I'm actually so selective with who I date as well, though. It's just that my selection is awful.

I didn't date on my year abroad at all so I didn't really invest anything in anyone there, but I got attached to this guy pretty damn quickly and it was hard to loosen the attachment even when things became increasingly negative. I've already cracked, I've bought his "I love and care about you Maddy" spiel and unblocked him on WhatsApp, but at least I sent the report. I've kept the voice clip just to de-program myself so to speak and give myself the reality check that THIS GUY STRANGLED ME, WHY DO I STILL CARE ABOUT THE LEVEL OF PUNISHMENT HE GETS.

 

I don't understand why all I think about is HIM and how HE will feel, why is the focus on him when I'm the one who's been physically assaulted?

I can't seem to focus on myself because all I think is those "You're such a drama queen/stop victimising yourself/ stop being emotional" reactions to any time I displayed a remotely negative emotion.

 

I just feel terrible because I'm one of his supervisors at our job. We do the exact same course. We live less than 3 minutes away from each other. This was always going to be a bad idea, but I always thought if we fell out, it would just be a clash of ideas, that it wouldn't be anything serious like this. We didn't even start out by dating, but maybe the drugs need to stop because it only became romantic after one of those nights. Either way, I am going to be clean for the entire month and try and get started/finished on some of my assignments due in for next semester. I have an average of 85% right now and I'm relieved that none of the crazy things that have happened this semester have disturbed that.

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I think you should just perma block him everywhere and start dating again. 

 

If you find yourself being super selective but always ending up with baddies try looking at someone safe but boring like the asian dude with an engineering degree. 

 

 

And you can cope with your feelings by positive social interactions or self improvement (gym, skills, work) as well. The funny thing about using these ways of coping is in a few weeks to a few months suddenly you find that your okay and better off than you were before the break up.

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I think you should just perma block him everywhere and start dating again. 

 

If you find yourself being super selective but always ending up with baddies try looking at someone safe but boring like the asian dude with an engineering degree. 

 

 

And you can cope with your feelings by positive social interactions or self improvement (gym, skills, work) as well. The funny thing about using these ways of coping is in a few weeks to a few months suddenly you find that your okay and better off than you were before the break up.

 

I've joked about this before with a friend "My type is white boys who abuse me."

But seriously, you have no idea what a baddie looks like sometimes.

The boys I avoid are the stereotypical "would [bleep] with your mental health" types (DJs, sports players, business students) but at least you can see them from a mile off.

I watch my friends get [bleep]ed over by these types of guys, but the behaviour of these types of guys is almost predictable, and my friends seem to bounce back pretty quickly.

 

My ex boyfriend was a computer science student, seemed sweet, but absolutely destroyed my mental health in a two-year relationship. I've been single for seven months.

This guy, Biochemistry student, once again, seems sweet, trustworthy. Invites me to events constantly. Absolutely continued the destruction of my mental health (but by this point I was used to people chipping away at my mental health) but then this guy physically assaults me and I have no idea wtf to think.

 

I think one of the reasons I don't bounce back so quickly is because I'm hyper critical of myself, my actions - I wonder what I did so wrong to end up in these situations. Instead of accepting that people are horrible and nasty and that I didn't deserve to get strangled, I wonder what I could have done to avoid getting assaulted, and that's [bleep]ed up but I need to find a way out of that type of thinking.

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Who knows maybe you should try going out with fun guys then. DJ's, athletes, etc.

 

But my standards for relationships are that it should be fun. If we generally get along and don't fight, are sexually attracted to each other, and enjoy spending time together its a no brainer. If any of that changes, I'm not married to them and were not parents theres no reason to stick around if your not happy with each other.

 

With a standard like that I think it would be easier to notice an abusive relationship earlier and be able to leave before things starting getting dangerous.

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Don't stereotype djs jocks and whatever else as a whole entity. You can definitely be good at sports or a dj and still be a nice functional human. If anything I expect the nerdy type people to be more abusive out of lack of knowledge on how to properly socialise. Just find a functional person, don't judge them by their interests or major.

 

Also, block the shit out of anyone who abuses you. They'll only continue to abuse you.


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Don't stereotype djs jocks and whatever else as a whole entity. You can definitely be good at sports or a dj and still be a nice functional human. If anything I expect the nerdy type people to be more abusive out of lack of knowledge on how to properly socialise. Just find a functional person, don't judge them by their interests or major.

 

Also, block the shit out of anyone who abuses you. They'll only continue to abuse you.

I love how in your first two sentences you say not to stereotype and in your third you stereotype ;)


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Don't stereotype djs jocks and whatever else as a whole entity. You can definitely be good at sports or a dj and still be a nice functional human. If anything I expect the nerdy type people to be more abusive out of lack of knowledge on how to properly socialise. Just find a functional person, don't judge them by their interests or major.

Also, block the shit out of anyone who abuses you. They'll only continue to abuse you.

I was actually kinda being tongue in cheek. I don't date guys based on the subject they study or if they play a sport. I play women's football and I was in the trampolining team two years ago. My ex was a tennis player and I'm fully aware that your hobbies don't inform your character /personality

 

Anyway I blocked him, I think I need time to recover and I've written my statement, submitted the audio file and I'll try my very best not to think about the incident too much. I quit a shift at work for some space but I hope I can do my job properly when I return next week. Whatever the punishment ends up being, I do genuinely hope he can get help for his anger.

 

In reply to you, ring world: I'm not much of an argumentative person I'd always just let him rant at me. Looking back I'm not really sure if I liked hanging out with him, getting high with him was always a laugh though. The sexual chemistry has got to be the best thing we had, I've never been so attracted to someone sexually but I'm cool with that being over. We always said that it needed to stop but it just kind of wouldn't...

 

It sounds [bleep]ed up but I literally wish I could get closure to this. I never will though I just want to know what makes you strangle someone that clearly cares for you

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Don't stereotype djs jocks and whatever else as a whole entity. You can definitely be good at sports or a dj and still be a nice functional human. If anything I expect the nerdy type people to be more abusive out of lack of knowledge on how to properly socialise. Just find a functional person, don't judge them by their interests or major.

 

Also, block the shit out of anyone who abuses you. They'll only continue to abuse you.

I love how in your first two sentences you say not to stereotype and in your third you stereotype ;)

After poorly phrased way of saying anyone can be anything if you put them in a box for sure


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Anyone who likes logic is incapable of tacos.

 

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[bleep]ing much to do.

 

Way to go Maddy. Gotta report that stuff. Don't worry about the guy, he will manage. Or at least has to manage. Dare to do something like that, dare to take the responsibility.

 

PS: Drugs are bad. Keep off them.

 

On a different topic, found out that there is the possibility that I am spending the last Christmas ever with my whole family...


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So I've noticed this thread's regulars all follow similar trends.

 

RPG is constantly dealing with psycho exes.

Muggi reminds us of the joys of polygamy.

Saq is totally oblivious to how much chicks dig him.

I strike out every other week.

Kalphite wages a war against the friend zone.

Randox pretty much stays rational.

Etc, etc

 

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His knee is terminally ill. Without his knees, he's no longer Saq. This is his last Christmas with knees.

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post was deleted whats the connection?

 

I'm assuming he wrote something ridiculous about the russian ambassador assassination in turkey.

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I slept for 12-13 hours yesterday, and I still can't [bleep]ing get up and out of bed this morning.

 

Depression [bleep]ing sucks.


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post was deleted whats the connection?

 

I'm assuming he wrote something ridiculous about the russian ambassador assassination in turkey.

looks like he made that reddit post and then deleted his account


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His knee is terminally ill. Without his knees, he's no longer Saq. This is his last Christmas with knees.

RIP KNEES


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So uh, what's up with hobgob?


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Anyone who likes logic is incapable of tacos.

 

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Origin: Brand_New_iPwn

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Someone on reddit had the username hobgoblinpie. Not sure if it's the same guy though

 

And then he deleted his account lol

 

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