kelem_ryu

Well i got schizophrenia triggered partly by smoking pot (i smoked awfully much though. like really, really much). It's not without it's dangers. Most important thing about drugs imo is that you don't start using them more then occassionally. It should be an experience and not a continious state. Then again you can just [bleep] it and throw whatever you happen to get into your hands. I know a couple of people who did that at least for some time. It might ruin your life, but hey! Life only last so long anyway. Seriously drugs are a two edged blade. If you want to experiment with them, know that society doesn't approve of it and if something goes wrong you'll be the dope head that everybody frowns upon. Then again, if you must throw something then you better enjoy it. Only ever do drugs, when you are in an environment you feel good about. Never use them when you are in a bad mood. It will only make things worse. (I guess everybody knows that anyway.) Don't do speed. Speed sucks. Don't believe anybody who says drugs are bad. Don't believe anybody who is too fond of them either. Just my 2 cents.

Thanks for all the responses. You are right. It seems i made a very similar post some months ago. I do think i feel better then back then. Ialso think back then i felt better then a year ago and so forth. I want to clarify that i'm not from the US. I live in Vienna, the capital of Austria. I can't join the army and if i could, i wouldn't. I wouldn't join the US army and i certainly wouldn't join the joke of an army Austria has. They wouldn't let me anyway. I'm psychological unfit (i had some issues with schizophrenia about two years ago). That's a whole topic on it's own. I'll try to sum it up. People are obsessed with safety, obsessed with controlling everything and everyone. Everything gets categorized and labels are put on, so that people are just reading labels and judge by them. For every problem there is a short-term solution. Nobody cares how things will work out in the long run. Blessed be Democracy! We are drowned by media and advertisement, where everybody is always happy. The manipulation is so clever that although people know that they get manipulated, they still buy into it. I feel like living in some alteration of Brave new world or something. In our wierd world, it is deemed important to generate jobs. Are people bored if they don't have a job? If everything is running with x jobs then why would we need more? Everybody could just work less. In a household there are certain things to do like cooking, doing laundry and what not. If all these things are taken care of, you don't start creating more responsibilities. In society however nobody seems to keep record of things that are to be taken care of. I mean.. what is the government doing all the time? Oh right.. i forgot.. they have to make sure they'll get reelected. To hell with unpopular long term solutions and strategies! It's a zoo, or kindergarten maybe. I could go on on that for a while... I'm good at critical thinking and can concentrate really good and long. I can think outside the box. I think i can feel into people pretty well to. Also i'm quite agile. I'm very interested in spiritual subjects, culture and people. I'm a bit into music to, not really that skilled though.

Don't sound too special too me. Okay music, okay productionwise, but neither instruments nor voice are gripping imo.

Imo the first part really lived of the contrast between really ordinary girl and agent as you know them from the movies. That was what made bourne identity good and unique. With Franka Potente gone in supremacy we were left with an very ordinary thriller - not bad, but not good either. I haven't seen ultimatum yet.

I know that this isn't the board likely to give me an answer, i'll state my case anyway, just for the sake of writing it down and to present it to readers. I recently turned 25 and i still have no clue, what i am going to do with my life. I just don't know what i want to do. Currently i spend/waste most of my time in front of the computer, basically doing nothing. Pro forma i am a student, but i don't think i'll finish university (i haven't even been to any lecture for about a year). I could though. I definitely have way above average intellect (english not being my native tongue doesn't reinforce that impression of course) and could become a lawyer or something if i wanted to, but i don't. I don't have a girlfriend, i don't have a job and i smoke two to three packs of cigarettes a day. So basically i'd have to consider myself a total loser. Sometimes i wonder if i just suffer from reality loss, should get any kind of degree that would lead to a corresponding profession, get a girlfriend/wife and become a citizen. That is what i never wanted to become though. Something about the culture we are living in feels wrong to me and i don't want to strengthen it by being a part of it, but what else can i do? I'm not particular brave and lack self confidence, so i can't just go away to a different place. Actually i often think i'd rather be dead, but neither do i feel suicide would be right, nor would i have the guts to execute it. Also i'm not really depressed, i just don't know what my place is. I enjoy the things i do, when i do them, it obviously just can't be all what life has to offer. The main problem is that i have no real income besides the stipendium i get for "studying". Rather sooner then later i'll have to have some and most "jobs" don't seem right to me. I can't work a job that works contrary to my believes, can i? It's just that almost all jobs do, because they work inside and reenforce a society i hate. Just look at the thread "13 year old got arrested for writing on the table" that's just the tip of the iceberg. I can see how everything is entwined to generate such [cabbage]. Sometimes i wonder if i just should get myself into a position, where i can unwined everything that i deem wrong from within, but a) i don't think i have the energy for that B) i don't care soo much about all this [cabbage] that happens. I don't even read the news or watch TV anymore. c) I don't want to work inside. I often just want to smash the structures, but i) i don't have the power to do that ii) do i really care? and iii) wouldn't smashing it do more harm then good? I just don't know what my place is. I don't know what i want. I'm tired and ain't too strong. What am i going to do? Basically i believe answers and opportunitys should come naturally, but either i missed them, or they didn't come. Well that's that. Thank you for reading.

Somebody already said something in this direction I believe. Seems like the dream has something to do with guilt and hentai. btw.. if you don't know it: (WoW Version)

I don't have a licence and probably never will have one. (I'm 25) I don't think those cars are gay though. A little inpractical for day to day use though. At least if you live in a city with small streets and high traffic (like every random European capital). If i were to choose a car, i'd want something that looks a bit worn, a bit sporty with racing stripes and is robust and comfortable. It would need to have personality. Would be sufficient if it had more power then a sewing machine or a lawn mower.

I'm no expert on this, but also would have said Gibson. Doesn't really matter what it is exactly, as long as it sounds good imo :D

I wish i knew, i wish i knew.

I'm 180 cm and weigth about 60kg. So i'm with you on that subject. I used to live on a hill and constantly walking up and down there did some good to my legs. Currently i hardly move at all and smoke 3 packs of cigarettes a day. Don't eat too much either. A couple years ago i did some dancing and went to capoeira training about twice a week for 2 and a half hour each session. I really looked good back then and felt strong and swift. The problem is that i'm not in an environment that would motivate me in any way like i was back then. That's important imo - circumstances that make it natural to be active. Anyway.. if you can motivate yourself somehow then either walk or hike a lot. You'll get hungry doing that and will eat more. Even better would it be to do some sports that interest you about twice or three times a week. I'm a fan of martial arts and dancing, but i guess everybody has a different taste. I think it's important though, that you do that more then 1 hour once a week, so that you really get into it. At first it's very exhausting of course, but after a while, when you walk around doing random stuff, you just move more smooth and feel good about your body. At least it was like that for me. If you can't motivate yourself, you'd have to create circumstances that will motivate you. It has to be natural after all. Just eating more... it doesn't work that way.

Americans and their grades.. Here in Austria grades hardly matter. It's more about "passed" or "not passed".

Nay. Popularity doesn't hurt though, if it comes somewhat naturally. The last word is important. I didn't want to suggest you should act and pretend to be popular. Might have sounded that way.

Magic. What else?

i was called a blood barrage noob once :?

Uh.. How about that one: Do you cut down slices from the piece of butter, or do you spread from the top? btw.. this isn't screwed up on the gfs part alone. There have to be at least two parties involved to argue how to cut a kiwi in half.

I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone i don't consider hot. I don't care about the size of butt or boobs though. Cellulites wouldn't be something i'd love to see (or touch) though and not an ounce of fat of course. I like them thin (healthy and naturally thin though), like idk Kate Moss or Milla Jovovich although the latter almost has too little breasts.

I guess i'd feel sexier as a girl. As a guy.. you know hair all over your body and some wierd extremities between your legs... who would find that any attractive at all?!

That sounds like a good idea. As for the classes you planned on taking, maybe you want to reconsider to. If you really want to take the classes, then stick with it, but if you'd rather hang out with your friends, then agree on what classes you all are going to do. Let me give you a piece of advice: Have a great time, as long as you are in high school! It will only last for so long. 'nother thought: Could be good, that your friends are hanging out with this "really popular girl". I guess she'll have some cute friends to. So you might want to stick around just because of that. If you'd have won over this girl, then you wouldn't have the opportunity to get into contact with her and her friends. As it is your friends are already hanging out with her. So should you.

Although i find the thought of drinking Dr. Pepper Coke disgusting... and some people even like it! yuck!

Hehe ..and i thought i was neurotic. Fun read. I remember the time i first saw a bank note. Thought the guy would try to scam me somehow. To me trading is one of the most fun aspects of rs. I don't know too many MMOGs, but there's hardly an economy so fun to ride as the one here.

My guess is, that the girl is just a nice girl, that mostly gets ignored by guys at her age. Then she meets this Teeny boy on RS, that probably made completely shameless sexual remarks. Considering, that nobody else ever acted that way towards her, this turned her on quite a bit. Then one thing lead to another. To the mother the girl probably just seemed like a nice girl. Still it's wierd, that she didn't found it strange, that a 22 year old girl traveled trough half the wolrd, to meet her son. Of couse it's not exactly a good thing to do, to let something like that happen between you and a teen of that age, but the way i see it, now there are only victims.

The RS community is way to big, to expect players to follow any rules, but the official rules of the game. A player new to pking just won't understand what these "rules of honor" may or may not be good for. If he honestly would try to abide to them, he'll probably just die. So i guess everybody just has to figure out for themselves what makes sense and what doesn't make sense. If that means you and your opponent both are just eating and draining prayer, so be it. What are you going to do about it? Calling him a noob? What i don't get at all is, why people don't use the duelling arena instead, if they have a problem with others not playing to their rules. Isn't the arena exactly what you are looking for? There you can set the rules as you seem fit. The argument: "If everybody would do that, then.." just doesn't work. You have to accept, that there are very few inherent rules to the wilderness. If that makes people do things you don't deem enjoyable, the only thing you can do, is to leave the wildy and do something else instead. Pjing might not be nice, but the wilderness is hardly about being nice. Saving and praying might waste supplies. If that is the case, you'll have to find a way to get a fast, sudden kill. The way i see it, the wilderess is hardly the place for a fair duell. You got the duelling arena for that. The wilderness is about looking for opportunities. Fighting somebody around your level with full health, full prayer and an inventory full of food and pots isn't exactly what i'd call an opportunity.

You are in the wild. Do whatever you want! There are no rules in the wilderness. Some people may have established some. Why would you care though? It's your game as well as theirs. The truth is: People who whine about not getting kills, because people are "saving" are just bad pkers. If you think somebody will eat plenty, run and tele out asap and you doubt you can kill him that way (or you don't want to waste the ressources), you can just let him run. If on the other hand somebody eats too much and fights back or even started the fight, you got an easy kill. What i wonder is, why anybody would waste focus on the kill, by typing meaningless phrases into the chat.

I don't know about others, but i met a German living in England on Rs and we just kept talking english once we found out, because we both like writing english. Hm.. thinking about it, i can't remember meeting a non german native speaking german, so i just don't know, how i would react.