Confession: I have a picture of me in a dress and heels...

Confession: I have a picture of me in a dress and heels...

I have a picture of me in a dress on these forums.

Nothing to be ashamed of.

That's nice.

 

Having Tourette's Syndrom (main tic I have causes me to jerk my head around a lot, I have a few others but I won't go into detail) is a pain in the ass. I pull muscles in my neck very often, and I've had this terrible head ache for as long as I can remember (seriously, from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to sleep, non stop head ache). Having these tics has left me with severe social anxiety (I wasn't really accepted in high school and was picked on a lot (pretty much had like one or two friends) which was the main cause of me dropping out and just testing for my G.E.D. which I got). Any time that I go out of the house, I always feel like everyone is looking at me and commenting on my tics behind my back. If someone behind me whispers to the person next to them and they both start laughing, I get really paranoid and pissed off at them. I need to get a job to be able to afford a car, but I can't deal with people.... When I'm in a room with a lot of people I feel like they're all staring at me and judging me/laughing at me on the inside. It get's to the point where I have panic attacks. The doctors have prescribed me many different medications to help with the tics. None have made any difference with it, they just put me in a zombie like state all day, but the tics still occur just as frequently as ever. The only medication I've found to help is marijuana. After smoking a single joint, I go from having my tics occur 5+ times in a minute, to having them occur maybe once in 10 minutes. The head ache goes away, and generally everything becomes better (social anxiety becomes pretty much nonexistant too). My mom accepts the fact that it helps me and is okay with me smoking. There are just two problems. I don't have a job so I can't afford it on a regular basis (and having a job will be hard with the social anxiety). The other problem is my dad. He accepts the fact that is helps me, but he doesn't want me smoking. I really don't know what to do. He doesn't want me to smoke, but I don't want to deal with this constant pain for the rest of the time I'm living with him.

 

Confession: I've grown tired of sobriety, and I've grown tired of what my father thinks of me.

 

Feeling depressed/angry. <_<

 

(I didn't know where else to vent my frustrations at, so I threw in that confession there to make it relevant to this thread).

 

I feel exactly this way about stuttering. How I'm very paranoid and think everyone is laughing at me behind my back. Just thought I'd let you know that you're not alone in feeling that way.

 

Let me tell you this from personal experience. People don't care. I have a stutter too, and it's pretty bad. When I was younger, I was made fun of a lot. But when you're older, people don't give a [bleep]. If you're remembering the times when you were a little kid and people laughed at you, don't. They've grown up and matured.

Confession: my biggest secret may be my biggest regret, but it's certainly also something that gave me great joy. I choose not to let go because in order to fully let go, I'd have to give something up that I'm so lucky to have and I hope to hold onto throughout my entire life.

 

Having Tourette's Syndrom (main tic I have causes me to jerk my head around a lot, I have a few others but I won't go into detail) is a pain in the ass. I pull muscles in my neck very often, and I've had this terrible head ache for as long as I can remember (seriously, from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to sleep, non stop head ache). Having these tics has left me with severe social anxiety (I wasn't really accepted in high school and was picked on a lot (pretty much had like one or two friends) which was the main cause of me dropping out and just testing for my G.E.D. which I got). Any time that I go out of the house, I always feel like everyone is looking at me and commenting on my tics behind my back. If someone behind me whispers to the person next to them and they both start laughing, I get really paranoid and pissed off at them. I need to get a job to be able to afford a car, but I can't deal with people.... When I'm in a room with a lot of people I feel like they're all staring at me and judging me/laughing at me on the inside. It get's to the point where I have panic attacks. The doctors have prescribed me many different medications to help with the tics. None have made any difference with it, they just put me in a zombie like state all day, but the tics still occur just as frequently as ever. The only medication I've found to help is marijuana. After smoking a single joint, I go from having my tics occur 5+ times in a minute, to having them occur maybe once in 10 minutes. The head ache goes away, and generally everything becomes better (social anxiety becomes pretty much nonexistant too). My mom accepts the fact that it helps me and is okay with me smoking. There are just two problems. I don't have a job so I can't afford it on a regular basis (and having a job will be hard with the social anxiety). The other problem is my dad. He accepts the fact that is helps me, but he doesn't want me smoking. I really don't know what to do. He doesn't want me to smoke, but I don't want to deal with this constant pain for the rest of the time I'm living with him.

 

Confession: I've grown tired of sobriety, and I've grown tired of what my father thinks of me.

 

Feeling depressed/angry. <_<

 

(I didn't know where else to vent my frustrations at, so I threw in that confession there to make it relevant to this thread).

 

I feel exactly this way about stuttering. How I'm very paranoid and think everyone is laughing at me behind my back. Just thought I'd let you know that you're not alone in feeling that way.

 

Truth is people talk about other people all the time. You should just learn to not let it affect you. You can't stop them, so why care?

 

Having Tourette's Syndrom (main tic I have causes me to jerk my head around a lot, I have a few others but I won't go into detail) is a pain in the ass. I pull muscles in my neck very often, and I've had this terrible head ache for as long as I can remember (seriously, from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to sleep, non stop head ache). Having these tics has left me with severe social anxiety (I wasn't really accepted in high school and was picked on a lot (pretty much had like one or two friends) which was the main cause of me dropping out and just testing for my G.E.D. which I got). Any time that I go out of the house, I always feel like everyone is looking at me and commenting on my tics behind my back. If someone behind me whispers to the person next to them and they both start laughing, I get really paranoid and pissed off at them. I need to get a job to be able to afford a car, but I can't deal with people.... When I'm in a room with a lot of people I feel like they're all staring at me and judging me/laughing at me on the inside. It get's to the point where I have panic attacks. The doctors have prescribed me many different medications to help with the tics. None have made any difference with it, they just put me in a zombie like state all day, but the tics still occur just as frequently as ever. The only medication I've found to help is marijuana. After smoking a single joint, I go from having my tics occur 5+ times in a minute, to having them occur maybe once in 10 minutes. The head ache goes away, and generally everything becomes better (social anxiety becomes pretty much nonexistant too). My mom accepts the fact that it helps me and is okay with me smoking. There are just two problems. I don't have a job so I can't afford it on a regular basis (and having a job will be hard with the social anxiety). The other problem is my dad. He accepts the fact that is helps me, but he doesn't want me smoking. I really don't know what to do. He doesn't want me to smoke, but I don't want to deal with this constant pain for the rest of the time I'm living with him.

 

Confession: I've grown tired of sobriety, and I've grown tired of what my father thinks of me.

 

Feeling depressed/angry. <_<

 

(I didn't know where else to vent my frustrations at, so I threw in that confession there to make it relevant to this thread).

 

I feel exactly this way about stuttering. How I'm very paranoid and think everyone is laughing at me behind my back. Just thought I'd let you know that you're not alone in feeling that way.

 

Truth is people talk about other people all the time. You should just learn to not let it affect you. You can't stop them, so why care?

Exactly. I used to be paranoid when I was younger. Now I just don't even care.

If they're even talking about you. People laugh and goof around without regarding who's around them; it's just coincidence that you're there.

Confession: I fall in LOVE very easily with Girls that I meet.

Secret:

If I told you then I would have to kill you.

 

Regret:

D & D.

 

Confession: I fall in LOVE very easily with Girls that I meet.

Secret:

If I told you then I would have to kill you.

 

Regret:

D & D.

 

 

Like, you get a small crush, or you pull a spare wedding ring out of your pocket?

This sound always send chills down my spine. I heard it while watching TV late at night when I was younger, frightened the hell out of me.

 

Also, I'm very asocial at family gatherings. At my cousin's parties, I often sit alone and just think about stuff.

Even though I barely think about you anymore (mainly because I never see you) when I do see or think about you, my feelings will always return: even if just for that instant.

It kinda sucks.

I hate people who call me their "bro".

 

more specific, total strangers. It's ok if a friend might as one does, but people I dont even know saying "hey bro" makes me irk for some reason. :|

I know what you mean bro.

Confessions:

I hate hipsters, but I'm oftentimes a hipster in music (the music I enjoy tends to be underground; I don't seek out underground bands).

 

I've been in a relationship with a girl for 2 years, but I often fantasize about other girls.

 

I'm a virgin, almost had my first time recently, and was quite honestly scared *cabbage*less because I thought it was about to happen. I suppose thats somewhat natural, though.

 

Being a virgin, and having only been in one monogamous relationship, I know way too much info about relationships and often play dating guru/sex therapist (verbally) at school. Apparently I'm pretty damn good, too :-?

 

I am FAR too often masterbative when I play the guitar.

 

I lied about my religion to get Eagle Scout (I'm atheist, definitely not "reverent"). Oh the irony...

 

My worst secret is not something I'd rather share on teh interwebs, but it DOES involve youthful trauma.

 

Regrets:

Not dating around before entering this long term relationship...too damn curious about the possibility of another relationship, too deep to "take a break" in the current one :/

 

Starting RS. Given the choice, I'd have never of found it. Much more time for IRL things, like guitar practice.

 

Life's pretty good otherwise :P

I've been in a relationship with a girl for 2 years, but I often fantasize about other girls.

 

That's normal. I'd be more worried if you didn't.

I wish I didn't lurk so much on TIF. I should post more, but I don't. It makes for an interesting relationship with other users. More often than not, I know far more about them then they are likely to know about me.

I am FAR too often masterbative when I play the guitar.

 

I'm trying my best to make sense out of this, but I just can't. Please help me here.

I'm afraid any confessions or anything from me would be rather boring - I'm a fairly upfront and normal person to be honest.

 

One thing is, that I've always been semi-ambidextrous - I do some things the 'left handed way' despite being right handed. For example swinging a gold club/ baseball bat, and a lot of other things, even as silly as tying my laces apparently. For example I struggled to learn guitar as my teacher wouldn't let me play left handed (evil witch :( ) I think it's from my mum being left handed naturally but being forced in school to be right handed. I've always kinda wanted to be left handed and footed because of this. [/boring confession/secret/regret]

I'm afraid any confessions or anything from me would be rather boring - I'm a fairly upfront and normal person to be honest.

 

One thing is, that I've always been semi-ambidextrous - I do some things the 'left handed way' despite being right handed. For example swinging a gold club/ baseball bat, and a lot of other things, even as silly as tying my laces apparently. For example I struggled to learn guitar as my teacher wouldn't let me play left handed (evil witch :( ) I think it's from my mum being left handed naturally but being forced in school to be right handed. I've always kinda wanted to be left handed and footed because of this. [/boring confession/secret/regret]

 

Apparently I eat left handed, and in the few times I've played golf, I've preferred left handed. But that's it.

I am FAR too often masterbative when I play the guitar.

 

I'm trying my best to make sense out of this, but I just can't. Please help me here.

 

Allow me:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=houU6FjEnaI

Confession: Ive been having secon thoughts about my current relationship.

 

Secret: I'm thinking about blowing off warped tour on Saturday with my girl and her friends to play WoW because I don't feel like being drunk 7 days in a row.

 

Regret: Being an ass to Megan yesterday so I didn't get any "happy" time.

Confession: Ive been having secon thoughts about my current relationship.

 

Secret: I'm thinking about blowing off warped tour on Saturday with my girl and her friends to play WoW because I don't feel like being drunk 7 days in a row.

 

Regret: Being an ass to Megan yesterday so I didn't get any "happy" time.

 

you didn't watch any movies?

Confession: Ive been having secon thoughts about my current relationship.

 

Secret: I'm thinking about blowing off warped tour on Saturday with my girl and her friends to play WoW because I don't feel like being drunk 7 days in a row.

 

Regret: Being an ass to Megan yesterday so I didn't get any "happy" time.

The happiest place on earth my ass.

Confession: I sometimes get trolled easily. :cry: